you are the only person that i don't have difficulties to talk to about my weakness or the outer side of myself.
only you are the only 1 that i have the courage to say those things infront of you.
i do not know why i don't have the fear to say out the things.
i always wanted to find a person to talk to about those i have.
after you had been working with me i found out that you are the only person i don't have a big distance.
although some of you are close to me but i still do not dare to talk about that with you guys.
only you *** that i have the courage to tell/share with you about those things i have.
i think you should know what i'm thinking.
only you know that whenever got people say me/give me names i would burst into tears.
only infront of you i speak of those i won't burst into tears.
i wanted to chill and not think about those things that happened in the afternoon.
i know people would make fun of me/ give me names but only you and others won't.
i'm happy to have you, tricia, huiping and others that don't mind to be my friends.

just wanted to say:
heyz friends,
thanks for being my friend all these times. i won't forget those times that you all treat me so well. i'm glad to have you all as my friends. i know after you all read this, you all willcome and tell me that you all will be my friend is my character is not about my appearance. but appearance is impotant isn't it? and you all will come and say" heyz cheer up." "don't care about them. they are just jealous". i know you all just to cheer me up. i know you all are just wei le wo hao.
last but not least. thanks.

still got 3 hours and 24 minutes to CHRISTMAS!

found this funny video at youtube.
so i decided to share with everyone.

fcuk sia.
today i get my GCE n level result i got 20 points.
that 1 point extra sia.
if not i can go sec 5.
haiish every thing fated!
can't blame.
who ask me never study hard enough.
i believe that she can promote to sec 5.
anyway who cares i dun need care so much.
oso not my problem.
next year is she suffer not me what.

ahh...
english c5
comb. humanities ungraded
mathematics c5
comb. science b4
F&N b3
chinese b3
chinese oral merit.
cool~
i think i need time to think over bahhs.

every week i have been chiong-in taiwan drama.
all the drama i watched is damn nice.
especially:
1. hi, my sweetheart
2. Autumn's Concerto
3. momo love

for korea drama is:
1. you're beautiful

all the drama i suggest is very very nice.
got time can go and watch.

omg~
this coming Friday i getting my N level result already!
time pass so freaking fast.
shit la.
i don't want to get .
i haven enjoy my holiday yet.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

pray hard that i won't done so badly please!

being chiong work these few months.
i gonna buy my ipod touch la!
i wanted for so long already!
after buying i think i will be broke.
anyway i now already broke le.

hellos peeps.
i got a drama to intro to everyone.
it is a korea drama.
it's freaking nice drama.
for those who will cry easily u have to prepare tissue when u watch the drama.
especially when it comes near to the last episode.
i cried alot of times.

the show name is you're beautiful.
feel free to watch the drama.

23 Nov
went to compass with sister to buy stuff.
oh gosh, i spent nearly $60. half of my pay was gone!
no choice this have to spent monthly or daily.
i'm working and using the pay to survive without using parents money.
see how noble am i.
hahaha. i'm so thick skin. ;p
bought hot shot dvd.
like finally i bought the show.
that time i wanted to buy but is not the whole show out so i waited until now.
and got 30& off. so i can save some of the money for next month to use.

24 Nov
went to punggol plaza just now to buy hair dye.
actually wanted to dye yesterday but then my brother go and use the rest.
so he pay for another hair dye for me.
hahas. save my money. but i not sure whether will have the colour.
hope have if not it waste money.
now is 7.08pm i gonna go and eat my dinner if not my mum will nag and nag.

oh manz!
i down with flu this morning.
ohmy, and i'm working today!
god bless me! hope i working won't be sneezing!
if not i sure very tired!

16 Nov
went to watch 2012.
the show fxxxing nice.
most of the people die because tsunami.
lucky singapore won't have.
i dun wish to see people being drown by water infront of me!
that so scary!

time checke
1.16pm. think i gonna take medicine and go and have a nap.
if not later i work sure die!!

went for buddhist dinner yesterday.
i saw some caicai too! and ahlian too!
got 1 girl walked pass got this uncle say "nowdays those teenager girls wear the short so short. then they say wait till next generation they just wear bra and panties like this can go out already"
hahas i was laughing all the way.
today going to meet GIRLFRIEND to buy her friend bbq stuff.
and until 7 plus i'm going to see caicai!
hahas. every year will do the same thing.
so cool!
needa to go and bathe and prepare lliaos.

been so tired these few days!
have been working since Friday until Sunday.
recently have some much customer.
until we all don't get to sit down and chit chat.
these 3 day my leg had been very sour.
it make me almost i can't sleep on Friday night.

after working my weekly routine is go to block and sit down and slack with GSY!
i haven seen her boyfriend for very long time.
stay at home will make me bored.
so i try to get approve to go out and meet my friends.
i heard there was class chalet but no one tells me about that.
and no 1 give me any information too.
maybe they does not want me to go also.
who knows.

god damn it.
my leg is still sour.

touching~

lyrics of the song:

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。


this song is so touching!
must listen.

boring day!

this is my 4th post for today! cool~
today i stayed at home the whole day!
today i only use computer, watch television.
nothing much today do!

Alice told me that we going to have class chalet.
not sure whether going anot.
as i do not know about that!
see I'm working anot.
sorry if i can't go.
feel happy for Alice as she found a job!

funny video

nowadays I'm crazy about G-Dragon.
because of his HEARTBREAKER this song!
so nice and so tempting to listen.
the tempo is so cool.

bored~

Now is 12.22am and I'm still awake!

19 October
stay at home the whole as i don't feel like going out!
so tired today! dunno is it due to yesterday finish work go home and bathe den go out!
i slept until 4 pm today!
i broke my record.
i used to sleep until 2 when there is no school but now is 2 hours later !
cool~~
sorry Girlfriend,
u not feeling good mood and i didn't go and comfort you.
sorry!

20 October
ShiYing asking me whether want to go and have dinner.
still thinking!
but no money lei how to go?
i got the feeling to eat steamboat!
i don't nowadays what i want to do.
holiday feeling so bored!

happy birthday HUIPING!

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR GAN HUIPING :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUIPING,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

today is my HUIPING TAI MA BIRTHDAY!
TODAY SHE BECOME 17.
*CLAP CLAP*
EVERYONE WHO IS BORN IN 1992 IS GETTING OLDER!
NEXT YEAR WE ALL GOING TO TURN INTO 18!
GETTING OLDER AND OLDER!
SOON WE WILL MARRIED AND GIVE BIRTH.
AHAHAS.
IT SEEMS LIKE I THINK TOO FAR ALREADY!

going out later to meet GIRLFRIEND!
it is so boring to stay at home when my bro and sis is at home!
cause i cant get to use com.
so the only way was to go out to kill time!
that's the best i can do.
going Kovan to slack.
after i come bacl will be using com.
i think so.
need to go and prepare already!

finally is holiday!
today is an official day for MY HOLIDAY!!

i think I'm going out today!
but i dunno where to go!
maybe going to watch movie with girlfriend!
not confirm yet!

yesterday and Saturday have been working.
Saturday have a great time during work with Shiying and Chris.
after closing me, sy and chris we went to the food court to have our supper!
it seems like it is going to be the same like last time.
i think that should be great!

Sunday work with sy.
after closing i, sy and her bf we went to resident corner to slack.
they quarrel again.
i feel like so extra there!
but now they are back to normal already!
that's great isn't it?
hope they will last long!
guess what they quarrel because of MAPLE!!
they are so cute, especially they are arguing.

now nothing to do.
what should i do now??
so boring.
haiish!

finally it's going to be the last paper!
it will be tomorrow.!!
so good.
after tomorrow i will be very FREE!!
cool~~~

today i freaking angry.
that BLOODY BITCH say I'm DOG!
look at yourself in the mirror la!
SO FAT still dare to say me!
u SLIM den come and say la.
ACT CUTE. no 1 want to see YOU ACT CUTE!
YOU THEN DOG LA! FAT SHIT!!!

i will be away for 1 week!
anything just sms or call me.!
thanks for your understanding!
bad days for me has already came!
things is not going smoothly.!

many things happen around me,
either my friend or me.
no good things for us.
wad a bad year i have.
how i wish next year can come faster.
because next year i will be 18. cool~~~
wahahahahahahaha.

today had 3 periods of history.
Mr Zul show us the miss singapore thingy(i not very sure wad is that)
the girl cant speak properly. how can she represent SINGAPORE!
WTH!~

Thursday we all 5 periods of MATHEMATICS
it was so boring! having lesson at AVA!
during Mr D*** teach nobody is listening!
because we all very tired of so having so much MATHS period in a day!

only working at SUNDAY!
actually cant work but then cant bear to leave MEIPING alone!
i understand alone doing base very tired and boring.
cause no 1 can talk to.
so i decided to help HER!
anyway i was working in the MORNING!
so afternoon i can study. hahas.
but SUNDAY time pass very fast especially when i'm at home!

wad a long post i have Today.
hahahs. isn't that GREAT!
need go now!
BYE BYE!

today went back to school.
as per normal had blocked lesson.
and today the time pass so fast!!
especially after RECESS!!
i like today!!

anyway i want to wish NICHOL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
must grow up.
where is my poster and u own me something!
you should know wad u own me!

need to go sleep, feeling tired.
bye peeps.

so long didn't update.
and now blogger is fine.




school gonna have 3 weeks of blocked lesson for the rest of the N level paper.
so boring every do maths, science, history, and F&N.
kind of tired to do all these everyday.
i want to change subject.
and i want N level faster come and faster finish.
gonna have extra 1 days to stay at home.
Monday is HOLIDAY!!
YEA.!!! SO NICE..
gonna work and work.
need money to buy the gadget that 1 want now.
my sis will help me pay $50. so that i do not need to pay the whole amount.

bye. peeps.
will be back once after my N level.
but dun worry i will view my blog and i try to replie tag.
but wont be blogging.
take care all my friends.

ahhhs.
3 papers have passed.
English, Chinese and Social Studies.
i think i may flunk my English and Social Studies.
ahhs. S.S paper is a killer.
i got not enough time to do finish.
at 3.09 i still at SBQ Q1.
omg... die die die.
alot people never do finish toos.
today i had English paper.
i think sure die toos.
the compo i write is 'promises'
i dunno what to write.
sians. section 2 is letter writing.
this year is INFORMAL LETTER.
hahas. was thinking this year will they come out report or complain.
in the end it was informal letter.


having mood swing.
fcuk. simply hate that.

so touching.
i cried when i watch this video.

why why why???
why u want to lie to me once again?
why must you do that?
cannot tell me the truth mehs?
once again u broke my trust to you.

130th

this post is specially for GOH SHIYING AND LIM MAYXIA.
as for GOH SHIYING i want to wish her 幸福快乐.
must last long with him.
and must bring him for me to see. okays?
must treat him good. if he treat you not good must tell me.

for LIM MAYXIA
i want to wish her HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY.
SORRY i never send you a birthday message yesterday.
cause i sleep early due to my headache.
really sorry. but i did not forget your birthday.
i bought you a present. hope you will like it. (:

gave school a miss today.
as i was not feeling well.
having diarrhea. wth dunno what i eat.
if i went to school for just 3 hours and we get to dismiss?
is like wasting time onli lorhs.
and they like having ace's day?
and i think they have to dance .
hahas. luck i not there. if not i kenna candid shot.. hoho. so ugly.

kfc is getting less and less people work.
and my N level is coming and i still have to work.
my mum sure will nag at me for working whereby my N level is near.
it always like this.
she wont let me off. when i have exam.
people got prelim cannot work
den when i got prelim i have to work.
that's not fair.
so wad she's a malay.
aren't we chinese people are human.
no matter we are chinese, malay, or indian we all are human wad.
so being so bias can anot.
u like this, to us is not fair u knw.
malay people fasting so wad.
although u working den u wan go eat like we chinese people dun need eat like that.
stop thinking about u all can anot.
i need a break.
all my friends have decided not to work at there anymore.
again left me alone.
even chris also not there.
i dun like to work with u all.
u all just know how to bully chinese people.
i cant stand it anymore.
was thinking whether should i quit.
if i quit she sure die. hahas.

tired. today work until 3.30. fcuk sia.
actually until 3 de. den the stock come den S ask me help her do the stock.
wth, dunnno she will pay me that half an hour mahs.

finally prelim is over.
i got a bad news.
from next weeks onwards SEC 4NA will have blocked lesson.
wth today receive the timetable.
omg. everyday we have mt, eng, and s.s
and fridays have S.S and ENG onli. no MT!!!
i wan MT more...

today had maths paper 2.
tomorrow going to have F&N paper.
hope i can make it.
today paper sucks like hell manz.
seriously i cant do much.
the paper so difficult.
freaking hate maths.
hope mdm nora dont give us so diffcult paper.
if not i think almost half of the class will die.
i must faster watch HELLO BABY if not i cannot study.
bye see ya peeps.

left with 2 papers.
which is maths paper 2 and f&n paper.
today i had bio and chem.
i think both paper i not gonna make it.
cause when i having bio paper.
my stomach is giving me problems.
until i cant concentrate on the paper.
den chem is i cant remember anything where teacher had teach.
this time i sure die.
hope tomorrow and Friday paper i can make it.
if not i think MR POTATO is giving us trouble again.
next week going to have blocked lesson.
which means i have to see more Mr wu, Mrs kong and Mrs seith.
i saw HP's blog says that yesterday Mrs Seith dad had passed away.
i hope she is okay, if not our english will die in N level.

bye needa study for maths paper2

sians.
prelim is coming back alrdy.
i think i gonna die.
today get back my CHINESE prelim paper.
p1- letter(10/20)
compo(33/50)
P2- (41/60)

the weather is killing me.

today i had a bad news.
which is i have to go to school on monday at 7.30am.
i thought i can sleep later abit.
haiish my beauty sleep.

I NEED AIR-CONDITION TO STUDY!!

bored...
i think i going to be sick.
i starts to have cough.
hopefully i wont have fever.
because fever is so troublesome to me.
my eyes will feel so hot.

nowadays, the weather is so HOT!!!
i can't stand it when I'm in school
it is killing me when I'm class.
the school is going to let the sec 1 to have air con first.
i think should have air con first should be block F .
we are more important to the school NOW!!
not them. they are being so naughty and rude to teacher so we must have air con first.

next week, going to continue the prelim.
god bless me pass all the subject pass with flying colours.
next wed going to have science and maths paper 2 and F&N.
i think this time i going to die soon.
i don't what had happen to my brain.
it has not been working properly after the air con cannot switch on.
i think is too hot for me to concentrate in class.
i think not only me,other people too.
so faster on our air con.
i can't stand already.

emo emo emo.

currently feeling emo.
due to some reason. dun wish to elaborate.
needa get some rest. shoulder is giving me so much troubles.

yesterday had mother tongue paper.
hope i can pass..

today had social studies.
i cant finish. i think N level sure die if i cant finish it..
wish me good luck.

tmr having history and maths paper 1.
die die die.. i have start study yet... omg!! needa go eat and study le.
bye peeps.

edit/
currently i tried to study history but nothing can go into my mind. oh my god. i need a super brain. i need to memorize everything aboout stalin, hitler, and war in Europe.
sians. i dunno whether i can do the paper anot. i scared that the paper is too difficult den i can finish. like that sure die de lei.. how how how...

Jiayou for everyone in PSS (4na students)

today had English prelim.
i not sure whether i will pass or fail.
oh gosh. the letter i write wrong format sia. die die die.. that part sure get very low marks. cause i write wrong. ahhh freaking hate to write English letter.

tomorrow is Chinese Paper 1 and 2.
the paper 1 better be easy. i wanna get high marks.
N talk to me today. that's great.. hope we can maintain this until n level comes.
something happen to them. but i wish to know but mx dun wan to tell.

hope paper 2 i can win her too. freaking hate to see the face.. bye gonna go and study the format for the letter writing.

oh my god.. please bao you me for all the paper that i will pass..

fucking dulan.
look at urself in the mirror b4 saying me la.
u think u look very shuai mehhs?
oh please la. for goodness sake, better take care of ur face first b4 saying me la.
are u her dog.. she ask u say wad ni jiu say wad!!
call me chocolate chip wad abt u. so ugly until no1 wants u llorhs. i think u 已身相许 to the pig, the pig also dun wan la. cuz u too ugly lliaos.

come on look at urself...
so fat, like a pig. still dare to say me.
if u r pretty, slim den come and say la.
stop throwing ur own face la.
i dun think u got the face to throw llorhs.
STOP ALL UR NONSENSE LA. BARBIE!!!
think u very pretty ahs., u look at the mirror i think will break into pieces.

if i say abt u den u say me i can accept it. but the problem is i never say YOU lei..
can u make this clear in ur mind!! LOOK URSELF IN THE MIRROR FIRST!! FAT PIG!!!

soon is going to be Friday.
and then weekend is coming.
after weekend PRELIM is coming.
my god i don't wish the day so fast come. if not i sure die.
i haven prepare myself.
everyday i came back home from school my mind first thing was computer.
how how how?? i do not want to fail my n level...
god please help me.
my brain is dying....
i need a super brain like those clever kids.
like that my head does not need to suffer...
why i am not born like those clever kids.

我很想你

today i stayed back to have biology and food&nutrition remedial.
biology remedial teacher go through the specimen paper.
as for f&n is we did dunno when the prelim paper.
next week prelim. i so scare.
after prelim den is actual N level.
i going to have my English, Mathematics and Social Studies for the first 3 paper.
my goodness, i am so afraid that i may fail my N level.
i think i need to buck up in my studies le.
i dun wish to lose to her.
going to have my dinner first and then i go study.

hey peeps,
for those who is taking national exam: jia you for ur N level or O level.

tired days!!

it have been very tired during school days!!
i have to stay until very late.
den whenever i reached home, i dun have the mood to do homework and study.
the moment u reached home, the only thing in my mind is COMPUTER
i cant concentrate.. how??

i freaking hate him manz!!
he say i got a bad mouth. but i told him is i learnt from people that criticize me.
can u put urself in my shoe. u dunno how people criticize when i was young..
u dunno. i think if u were my age and u saw me with those, i bet u would be the same like wad other people is doing..
see me like monster. why can't u all see me as a normal person. although i'm different from u all but treat me like a person can.
u all won't know how i feel... do u know that my heart bleed whenever people criticize me. u dunno how i feel. so stop saying that i dun have kou de la. if u were me i think u also would do the same thing llorhs.

Monday:
went to school at 7 plus. reached home at about 5.30 plus. it is freaking tired lla.... have to go school early and go home late.

Tuesday:
went to school as per normal. 7 plus. finished school at 5pm but me and may xia stay until 5.15 den we go off.
actually muz stay until 5.30 de but he let them go off early. but i still choose to stay awhile.

Wednesday:
tomorrow going to have bio remedial and f&n remedial. sians. ahhs. shit i forgot to bring back my f&n textbook. shit. freak you!!

hellos peeps.
i'm now at RM KFC blog..
currently the idiot is now laughing like nobody business.
going home at 6 plus bahhs. cuz waiting for tiramisu delight.
yea!! chris treat. hehes. yes ahs. haiish boring lei, tmr got social studies milestone. haiish i dunno i can do mahs. if cannot den die lliaos. cuz prelim is coming. haiish..

currently, like so many things happen around me.
haiish i dunno wad to do sia. OMFG!

no mood and nothing to blog already.. sians.

today i reached mall is 10.30am.
actually i should start work at 10am de but during 9.40am i still sleeping.
hahas. den aunty lee mei called me and ask me where am i.
i told her i goin out house le. but den actually i went out of my hse is 10.20am. hahs.
so i change my time to 11am.
reached there went to eat my S.A first. cuz i was feeling hungry.
after eating i start working. i work at base today. wanted to work cashier but feel very sian early morning work cashier.
so i work base with yew hock and lynn. at a certain time lynn got DL!!! that time i was doin shroom sauce.
so scary... it was around 2pm lynn needa fetch his son so she went off and feroz and ririn came i start to slack abit cuz there was not much people. so i run anywhere. today i finally saw PERLYN!!! for so long den i get to see how she look like.
it was around 5.15pm i quickly went to pack my things and wait for tricia to come. cuz me and her going compass help. it was michael and dilip shift. omg that botak is a pervert. he always give me a pervertic face. OMG!!!! eeeeek den tat michael call me jean. i not the jeans horhs. and he call me nui zai oso. u think wad jay chou song ahs nui zai hen mang... lame llorhs. so idiot de sia. today quite fun la. cuz gort that michael and dilip make me and tricia laugh. at 10.00pm still got people sia.. i wan go home de lei. den after close me and tricia went to store room and count money. their type of countin money is different from mall. because their per post is $300 but mall is $200 only. it is much more easier. today my leg so tired and sour like hell man... needa go hang my shirt and pants if not tmr not dry.

why u all got things dun wan tell me and tricia.
if u all dun wan us to knw den in the first place u all should not let us knw all those le mahs.

i like this song!!

言承旭 - 我会很爱你
初次见面就占据我心中
无数星空只为了你等候
每个角落 擦肩而过 被缘分捉弄

突然相遇在转角的街头
太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过 不能错过 对你的承诺

我不太浪漫 你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手 用全力向天空尽情呐喊

我会很爱很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你 四季不休息
打开WALKMAN 随时就能听见你
FEEL MY HEART 我最爱最爱的你

突然相遇在转角的街头
太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过 不能错过 对你的承诺

我不太浪漫 你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手 用全力向天空尽情呐喊

我会很爱很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你 四季不休息
打开WALKMAN 随时就能听见你
FEEL MY HEART 我最爱最爱的你
我会很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 用我的生命
很爱很爱你 你给我勇气
快乐寂寞走到幸福那一头
FEEL MY HEART我最爱最爱的你

i freaking hate mr XXXX.
i damn pissed off because of this thing.
when did i and she call u names?? did we?
dun have lorhs. u tell me la wad names i call u. dun have dun any how say la..
other people oso got say why u never say them lei. u bias say la. no need do until like that de mahs.
other teacher oso never do anything or care so much.
say until i dun have basic manner. if i dun have the basic manner i wont call u mr alrdy. think properly la horhs. principle oso never say outside school or go excursion muz wad wad. mus have fun mahs. we two no wrong lorhs. dun anyhow say me and her..

some things i just cant be bother.
if that's make u think that i changed ur friend, why dun u look urself in the mirror first.
dun u feel u are childish? if u are alone so what? does alone make u short of 1 meat?
NO right!! this is wad u like to say RETRIBUTION. do u still rmb when u keep on say a girl in our class.
i think this is the BAO YING to u bahs for saying people. do u still rmb last time how i help u abt the class tee.
i bet u haven forget abt this bahs. they dun like is u but all things happen i had been helping u. when those thing happen they all keeping saying. although i used to it but do u knw the pain in my heart!! i even help u to get everyone to hate me. not you!! UNDERSTAND!!! i know if i say this u wont believe wad i say, if u treat me good i will treat u good. u go ask my other friend la, have i ever treat them like how i treat u!! because u dun worth for me to treat u good. i wont treat my other friend like this is because they treat me truly.

i knw u may think that i say those is to make u feel pity for me that i helped u . i just wanted to say THANKS being my friend last time. sometimes i see u alone i feel like "i do all this things am i really very bad?". sometimes u really making me pissed off. i do not knw why.

today is extremely tired.
my body is all aching..
i want a an mo yi..

today stay until 5.15 den we get to go home.
today is do maths. therefore my brain cells is lacking alrdy.
omfg.. i need a break pls.
tmr will be finishing at 5.30. hopefully we get to go off early.
tmr is maths again. sians.

it had been 3 days since i last post.
recently got so much things happen to my friends beside me. like bel, tricia, alice, shiying and even myself too.
dun wish to elaborate out.
i got 1 feeling that more things is going to happen around us.
GOD pls bless us that none of us will happen anything.
i think everyone also think that too right?

last 5 days:
Monday:
had stay back in school and do F&N coursework.
everyone stay until 4.30, whereby most of the study already reached home and we still have to do coursework. go school early, thought can go back at 2 plus but we all were wrong, we have to stay back and do coursework.

Tuesday:
as usually lesson time. after school stayed back again to do what, coursework again. boring la. but we get to use laptop to do and the best thing is that got AIRCON!!! nowdays due to the H1N1 we dun get to on AIRCON! you knw how hot is that. and we have to bear the hot and continue the lesson. OMG!! i cant stand it. i bet other class people also like that.

Wednesday:
as usually. lesson den stayed back for coursework. this time same too. stayed until 4.30 den get to go home. lucky got this coursework help us. if not i think i gonna die in that school. if we do not have coursework we have to stay in school for self study until 5 lei.. very tired le still have to stayed back..

thursday:
same lesson and coursework. as usually stayed back until 4.30 to complete the amendments.

friday:
stay back too. until 3 plus den i get to go home. cuz we need to complete the amendments and print the coursework out for submission. haiish very scared sia, dunno whether will pass anot. now will die le. cuz from monday onwards we need to stay back for remedial and self study le. heard Monday is until 4.30, Tuesday is until 5.30, Wednesday is 5, Thursday till 5 and friday till 3.30. sian how am i going to survive from all this. i sure will fall asleep de llorhhs...

God please HELP ME!!!!

DeMing this post is specially for you.

thanks for all this few months.
thanks for console me when i'm sad or whenever there's something happen to me.
is nice to have u as my friend.
although we cant. you should know. but i still treat u as my best best best friend.
i hope u can do that as u promise me that i'm always ur best friend.
i hope u wont make me disappointed. because i trust u more than i trust other people.
i know u do not want me to be sad because of you, but i promise you that i try not to okay?
i still hope that u will always be my listening ear and i'm always be ur listening ear can??
even if u and the girl together i hope if u got anything u can tell me like how we like last time.
and u still like call me to chat.
dun forget me when u got her le.
must forever remember me. if not i die i will go and haunt you!!

please take good care of yourself and must study hard and achieve ur dreams.
i also will work hard for my N level. i hope u can give me the support and ur concern whenever i need you!!
must reply my message when i sms u. dun keep on sms with her jiu forget me le.
maybe we remain as friend is a good choice bahhs. at least we are still very good and close friend. right?

lastly. take care.
i think give me time to cool myself down.
temporary i wont contact you or click u at msn.
i need to forget everything.
when it's time le den i will contact you!!
anyway last long with her..

this video is super funny/.......




here are all the names and the group where they are from:

2AM:
jokwon (yellow)

2PM:
jaebom (dark pink)
taecyeon (orange)
nickhun (purple)

SJ:
eunhyuk (green)
yesung (peach)
shindong (maroon)
sungmin (blue)

SHINee:
key (light pink)

its been 5 days that i never update my blog.
hahas. now i in school using laptop.
hahas. good right. but the worst part is that i have to do my coursework.
recently feeling very sad. because of CHAN DEMING.
he got people he like le. good for him.
although feel happy for him and feel sad for me.
i still thought that 1 day i may ahem...
now the hope is gone..
hope 1 day it will come back to me...
currently looking for songs. all the song make me feel so boring.

nowdays i have been acting i very happy, but actually is not.
many things had happen to me this month.
GOD why choose me. why is me. can't be other people.
why all things happen to me... ahhhh. i dun wan this type of life.

yoyos.
currently now in school using laptop.
suppose to be doing coursework.
dun feel like doing.
still have to write comment about the research.
i cant think of any in mind la.
later working. sians. ahem shift.
sure very boring de.
later gonna suffer from her.
shiying not working.
i think she will come bahhs. cuz she wont be staying home de.
unless she want to save money den she will stay at home.
dunno later work wad time. gonna ask ppl help me check. hope is 6pm.
cuz work at 6pm the time will pass more faster. not like 4pm or 5pm.
not sure whether i work base or cashier?
today i think got tricia work. if dun have den can go home early and rest.
cuz tmr working morning. good sia. can work sat morning.
and sunday morning toos. xD

i feel so fuck up nowadays. i dunno why.
mayb is i think too much bahhs. sians. BORING~~~
feeling so sad.. feelin emo..
i change my msn nick. i put feelin emo. then qite alot ppl come and ask me why i emo.
dun worry i'm fine de. i need time to think. beacuse i scare i make a wrong decision. then i will regret of what i had done.

needa go liaos. later teacher see i will die. then i cant edit my course work le. den fail i have to cry to death lliaos.

time checked.
now is 1.58am going to be 2am.
tomorrow working at 4pm.
sians.
work base.
luckily no need to cook chicken.
got the who to cook chicken.

this week just start school.
feel so boring.
have to keep on take temperature.
so sian..
next thurs i going to take my n level english oral le..
sianns..
so scary sia.
i haven complete my holiday homework sia.
i think need to chiong le..
sians.
heng monday is holiday i can complete all the homework.
tuesday go school sure die de.
i never pass up my thursday de maths homework.
n level is getting nearer and nearer..
i cannot let it win.
if nt will hao lian..

this few days i dunno why i get so frustrated so easily..

i freaking hate this family..
she is treating me like her maid. ask me do this do that.
also not say she dun have legs and hands why cant she do it herself??
other people will bring their sibling go out. have you bring me out since the last movie we together watch at cinema is wad movie mahs? is ' i not stupid' do u knw how long was that?? when ur friend ask u who talk to you, do u still rmb wad u told them ' aiyo is my idiot sis' have u ever heard me say to my friend anot. why cant u respect me as ur younger sister.

jus a food container why must you say me got no brain. like you ownself got brain. ur salary is not much llorhhs. how can u say i got no brain.i was wondering whether u have another family outside anot. got money can late late come home. no money jiu reach home damn early. do u knw that how i wish one day u would ask me how is my work??or how is my school? have u do a part as a father mahs? you come home onli eat, bathe , watch news or newspaper and sleep? do u knw my friend parents are much more better. why cant you all like them.

thanks mum,
for bearing my temper when i'm not in good mood sometime. and those food that you bought for me. i want wad u will always buy for me. althought sometimes i have to wait for 2-3 weeks? but it's okay at least you still buy for me.

I HATE THIS FAMILY. I'M A HUMAN NOT A MAID IN THIS HOUSE.

now is 3.35pm and i need to go prepare to go bathe and go out.
and the sky seems like going to rain. hope it won't rain at paris ris.
cuz my class gonna have a BBQ at paris ris park!!
if it rain how are we going to BBQ!!!
maybe tonight after BBQ meet xavier. he gonna fetch me home ..
cool~~ second time people fetch me home!! so great!!
first time is ISEBELLA GIRLFRIEND fetch me home!!

sians. my school holiday still have around 2 weeks and i haven even touch my homework at all. i think this time i have to really work hard le. but how to. when ever i saw books infront of me i will fall asleep. shag sia.

need go bathe and prepare. bye peeps..

shag shag shag...
nowdays so many things happen..
shiying quarrel with cheers people.
den bel never go work. haiish..
den i being yuan wang by someone...
but then it haven even happened and she say me.
NOT FAIR!! i where got everytime go office sit.
you dun anyhow say me llorhhs.
if chris never told i still wouldn't know you say me behind my back!!

never mind la. sometimes i really tired mahs. den you all can sit and slack we all cannot sit and slack. you think only you all very hard working, we also very hard working llorhhs.

working at 8am. shag sia. so early but lucky is chris shift so good..

ysd went to work place. then after that meet chris and then accompany bel go home put things. after that we walk around then we pei nichol go home. after that all went home. den bel give me money to tak cab and i send her too.

anw i today goin work place to wash things. as tmr there is a 5Cs competition. hahas. cool hope we can get champion den like that we will have big feast. and we can take pay oso. *pray hard*

needa go and bathe and have dinner. and meet shiying at bus stop and walk to mall.

this post is especially for YOU!!!
i think you should know the YOU is who bahs!!


i think there is something that you're hiding from me and her!
i went to see the people that we know.
you tag them and ask them to link you.
the only people that you never ask to link you is me and her!
does you still treat me as your GIRLFRIEND mahs?
why must you do that?
i treat you as my best friend then now you like that treat me?
is it fair for me??
do you ever think for me anot?
you went to meet people is your business but i hope you can tell me the truth.
i don't like people lie to me.
especially YOU!! you know mahs!
do you know that you are very important to me??
sometimes i think that do you really treat me as your girlfriend mahs?
other people lie to me i don't care. cuz i haven treat them as my BEST friend like how i treat you.
i treat you as my BEST GIRLFRIEND that i have in my life lei.
have you ever think of that mahs!
i think you don't like people lie to you bahs!

you should know that being ps or lie by your GOOD FRIEND is not a very nice feeling bahs.
i knw i sometimes i shouted at you. is because my mood was not right at that moment!
i apologise to you that i shouted at you when i feeling angry or sad!
i know you care and concern about me alot. thanks . this is what i can say to you!
you can take it as nothing happen or whatever you like. this is how i think during this few days. ARE YOU REALLY MY BEST FRIEND THAT I HAD FOUND?
it seem like i cant get the answer from myself.
you know this few days i feel so sad and emo mahs? is because i don't want to let you know about this first. until now i really cannot take it anymore.
if you wanna continue as a normal friend not GIRLFRIEND you can tell me!
i hope you can give me an answer by ur blog post or sms! thanks.

today wasn't my day!!
the moment i went in to office 'she' ask me to cook chicken.
i don't wish to cook. then i told her that i don't want it today.
den i guailan her back den she buay song me. super dulan llorhhs.
although it affect my mood when i start my work. i didn't talk to her for few hours.
thanks to this person keep on ask me to smile. hahas.
during that time i really don't wish to smile and talk. the moment i talk it makes my heart feel like crying!!

shag shag shag sia.
how i wish she can treat me like how she treat the 'others' people.
not i want to say she bias but that's the truth. everything doesn't seem right for me!! right now i need a shoulder for me to lean on. how i wish he knows that!! haiish!!
the feeling is so bad when i see he wait for 'HER' it makes my heart feel bad!! so pain you knw~~~!! :(


nichol: thanks for cheering me up during that time. XIE XIE!! but in the end your mood also change!! although i dunno wad happen to you~! if you want a listen ear can tell me. i willing to hear all your sorrows.

isebella: bel don't you know nowadays you change alot. since after sunday night at KFC!!

HOLIDAY IS HERE!!

finally holiday is here!
but this year holiday is not for me!!
haiish sad sia.
during this holiday i really must buck up on my STUDIES!!!
i cannot let her win her!!
i must prove to her that i can STUDY!!

stop giving people faces whereby u don't like the person!!
GROW UP LA!! look at urself in the mirror and think about ur attitude towards ur friend. if ur attitude is good you will have a lot of friends!!

gonna go work later!! cool see my 'friend'!!!hahahs xD

today juz finish MYE!!!
YEAPPIE.
temporary can rest for awhile then after that have to chiong le.
my head sure will have alot of white hair, shag sia.

tmr gonna had english and chinese oral. sians. early morning need to go school.
actually tmr is marking day. other people no need go school except for sec 4e,5na and 4na. thought can at home sleep long long de.. my wish is gone.!!

today whole day stay at home. never go out. is quite boring therefore i fall asleep in the room. the weather is super hot. i slept half way i wake up my whole body is sweaty!! hot sia. but then i dunno why i still can go back and sleep. i sleep until 9pm then i have my dinner. shiok sia. sleep so long. den n0w cannot sleep.. haiish.

i found these song very nice.

tired day!!

hellos. everyone.
its been days that i haven update my blog.
look at my tag board that this girl call ISEBELLA had asked me to update ...
so now i here to update for HER to see...
actually not working today derhs.
but then the shikin asked me to help her work today as today night got no cashier..
boring. maybe today is a busy day too!! but hope not!! cuz today is monday!!
sians tomorrow got school. haiish. need to go back to see 'teacher' haiish.

now is 2.02 pm feeling very hungry. hahas. i didn't eat in the morning.
see i so focus on my comp rather than go eat my breakfast. today i woke up at 8.30am
cuz i wanna play comp that's why i up so early..


TO:ISEBELLA
sorry today too tired so like got no energy to play badminton. sians.
yesterday is mother's day, i didn't give anything to my mother this year!!
although i never give doesn't mean that i not xiao shun.SEE UR NAME IS IN MY POST!!

CDM:IMY LA!!
faster contact me!!

i found this two video very nice.

tired day!!

since after the food-court closed down temporary kfc have been very busy. because people only can buy food from those fast food store...
so quite many people come and buy.
today i was working as a cook.
it makes me too tired to go home.
as my leg very 'SOUR'. manager help us extent the ending time.
i keep on down chicken. tired LA!!! can't you help us. haiish.
i dunno tmr how sia.
sat and plus public holiday. sianx..
if tmr i do cashier. sure will die of thirsty.. hahas. hope i wont bahs..
scare scare sia. i dun wish to work tmr la.. ahhhh~~

sunday need to go grandma hse. as my aunties and uncles wanted to celebrate MOTHER'S DAY for my GRANDMA!! i work until 4 den muz take bus go down.
1 hour sia. ):
mus take 87 to reach the place..
how i wish i have car!!



reply tags:
huimin: okay sure. take out le.. anw next time go ur hse baked cookies again.
isebella: IMY sia..
huiping: IMY la. although we can see each other in school but i find it we in school doesn't talk much but at work we talk quite alot.
tricia: marmie. IMY LA!!!

this 2 days i have mid-year examinations. i had english and chinese paper 1&2. hopefully i can pass my english. for chinese i not that worried. but i still worried for the rest of the paper.

for next week i gonna have papers at thurs and fri.
next next week i gonna have the last 2 papers at monday and tuesday.
*pray to god that i will pass*....

ysd went to meet bel and we had badminton session and crazy session.
sian this fri have to work. ahhhh~~ i think is cashier sia.. sian if i kenna CHAMPS again i die le la..

recently had bad days ... dunno is i unlucky or just coincidence.

today quite tired. gonnna go rest lliaos..
and today i learn to play a new game at facebook call RESTAURANT CITY!!

watch this video is freaking nice!! and funny.. u see already u sure will laugh until you cry!hahs

today work floor~~ super slack sia.
see people do this do that den i was like very slack.
but i have to keep on keep and clean trays!!
and some is super disgusting!!
the chicken bone is all over the tray!!
and some is the chilli sauce. eeeeeeek..
after closing the store i need to clean, sweap and mop the floor.
it took me quite a long time. at least i got HUIPING to help me!!
wad a nice friend i have...
HUIPING: u see this.. hahas must give me a tag horhs.
reached home around 11.20 plus.
switch to hse fone to call GIRLFRIEND!!
get to know a new friend call GERRY!!
he is nice overall, and very funny..
nw is 3.56 and i still haven sleep. and i working at 9am in the morning.
i think tmr sure super tired de.
tmr i think have to do cashier. boring..!!
den it reminds me of SIR MICHAEL!!
he is damn bad and make me hate him llorhs.
he say i cannot smile so he cant afford to lose points at cashier.
so ask me next time dun do cashier if got enough staff.
F*** llorhs. think he big so wad. i that time run base and cashier he knw mahs dunno ask la.
dunno how to ask ahs!!!asshole..

unhappy days

haiish recently had alot of unhappy things. dun wish to elborate... juz wanna keep inside my heart!!

am i that bad ?? can anyone answer me this question??

if u see this post pls kindly help me answer this question!!

how you think about me?? please tell me why u dun like me and why u like me!!

thanks for ur coorperation! with millions of thank you in my heart!!


edited...
today had maths milestone. i got a strong feeling that i will fail very badly. cuz i leave some blanks which will cost me to lost 13 marks!!! die die die. this year n level sure die de la.. GOD PLEASE HELP ME!! i not good in maths. who can tell me wad to do to make my brain more clever??!!!!!

TO:ALICE PANG KIA Jeok

HAPPY BELATED 16 BIRTHDAY!!!

MAY ALL UR WISHES COMES TRUE!!!

TAKE CARE MY BESTI FRIEND!!

workin days!

today is sunday and i have to worked in the morning.
wad a bad life i have. other people with same age as me does not need to work.
they can go out the whole day. sad things for me. i have to earn my own money to pay my handphone bills.

today working 9 to 4 is a long time to pass. haiish have to kenna bully already.
cuz this particular manager will call my fullname!! haiish.. lucky is not my IC number..

needa go work lliaos.
i miss all my friends. especially ISEBELLA KANG!

see ur big name here!! rmb IMY!!!

14 march
woke up around 10 plus.
washed up, bathe and get things ready and i went off around 2 lilddhat.
BEL AHMA kept on rushing me . in the end i reached house downstair i saw the bus go off.
so no choice i chiong cab to EHUB to meet BEL!!
i can said that I'M THE FIRST 1 TO REACH EHUB!
hahas. accompany bel, her aunt and her cousin to sit the small FERRIS WHEEL.
although is boring at least can kill time to wait for GUANG LIANG!
when guangliang reach we went to NTUC to buy water for the chalet!!
after we bought the water we went back to chalet to put the stuff and we wait for the rest to come.
me and guang liang played PSP!
after everyone had came and bel's mum came it was around 6 plus .
so we decided to start BBQ but it still raining. so we waited and waited until the rain stop.
i was force to go and help to start the fire. hahas. i was so PRO can.
i make the fire from small to big. hahas.
jenson asked me: you not hot ah! hahas, to others is very hot but to me is soso. cause i stand there quite long so not very hot.

the rain had stop so i went to help to BBQ . BEL,GUANGLIANG,JENSON went to kbox. i was alone there with those kids. and some of the teenager. hahas. tricia and huiping went to xiaoyan hse. but midnight they came back. cool got ppl accompany me. but sad things happen. my TRICIA MUMMY is sad!! i dun wish to elborate. so i accompany my mummy at the staircase outside the chalet!!

15 march
ton until morning and we went to sleep for awhile,i and shiying went for a 'walk' aftermath we decided to go back to bathe and we went back to chalet with sheena and joel.
den they decided to catch a movie called coming soon. the movie is damn nice.
i rate 3.5. so u must go watch. aftermath we all went back to chalet. and the interesting part is that i drank volka mix with coke. not bad la. but the coke more than volka. hahas.
the most scary part is i saw jenson fierce face.
his face is freaking scary sia. he nearly go and beat 'the person i dun like'hahas.
scary sia~ its 11pm soon so i went home. haiish cuz the next day i gort milestone for maths.
i think sure fail de.


isebella: GIRLFRIEND thanks for the chalet although u PS me ...
tricia: mummy take good care of urself.
huiping: be careful of wad i told you.
xiaoyan: meet up soon. i miss the times when we at kbox.. the shouting!!

so much things happened this few days!!
don't wish to elaborate.

haiish my class is like having war lildhat.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

if u wanted to say me i rather you say infront of me than say behind me.
i doesn't want to choose the choices got wrong mehss!! the majority votes alrdy come out le wad.
i tick or no tick got differences mehs!
do you all ever think that if you were the one that being insulted, do you like it?
of course no right so think before you do!

known a friend recently. he quite funny sometimes.

time now is 00.20.

my birthday is just away from 2 days only.
for your info, nobody like remember my birthday except my friends.
i was saying my relative.
that time heard that they wan celebrate my grandma birthday then like no one say a thing about my birthday! you know how sad am i. i wanted to cry it out but i dunno i cant!! or is it, i used to it.
wad a sad case for me!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

happy new year everybody.
i know alittle bit late. but is still new year anyway!
on the first day of CNY heard my relative said that they wanted to help my grandma to celebrate her chinese birthday but then they seem like forgotten my birthday already!! sad lorhs. whenever i think of this matter it really made my hearts very pain!!
NOBODY REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY!! so sad lorhs. everytime made me felt like crying! haiish!
will they remember my birthday???

boring~~

dong dong qiang~
today having school celebration of CNY!
the concert is still okay la. actually can go back more earlier de lorhs. cuz of the form teacher went for urgent meeting!
still got 3 more days to CNY!
so happy. hahas.
but the most sad thing is not long later i going to be 17 le.
old Le.
sian this year cannot go auntie Linda house and play majong.

don't know got people remember my birthday mahs!! sians!

shirley: wahs that day my birthday still ask me go your house warming!so bad you forget my birthday!

i find this MV of SHOW LUO is very nice and cute sia!!

so many days never update.
finally i got the time to update.
up coming going to have test. boring!!!

today morning had visitor come to our school. they are from Indonesia.
first period was social studies, suddenly saw the Indonesia student walked passed, so some of my classmates asked "mr Wu why they never come to our class" so Wu called mr ZUL suddenly they came into the class..
MR CHEW voice is very loud.
i inside the class also could heard his voice.

tomorrow got history.
today may xia never come school. only got me and joscelyn and alice.
without may xia is so boring! nobody laugh with me.
today mr DING anyhow scolded people.
then me and joscelyn very angry .

oh my god. some people does not have manners!!

rmb this ip! 220.255.7.164.
this person is a LOW CLASS ,cheapo,disgusting,irritating!

SICKENING OLD BITCH!!!