im sorry honey, i just want you to know how i feel.



i know is i think to much le
i know i'm a very easy jealous person.
when i know you started talking with ur friend's girlf
my mind was like anyhow think already.
i know is i anyhow think
i just dont like the feeling when i saw you two the conversation
i know you two just friends.
i know you wont bian xin.
i just scared so much.
but i just cant help not to think about it.
i wanted to tell you how i feel
but i just cant open up my heart and mouth to tell you.
im jealous ):

About 2 weeks plus you jiu coming back le. Now short of one staff. I dunno i still can pei you on sat anot.. I scare because of work our distance become far. I also scared that one day you will leave me. Like how other guy leAve me cuz i got not enough time to pei you. Im really scare. If one day really happen i dunno how to continue to survive in this world. 

Imissyou

I'm sorry I cause so much trouble to you.
I just want all these to stop.
I just want everything back to last time.
I just the happy us back together again.
Bi I really love you a lot.
Don't leave me can?
I want you by my side. Imi

sometimes i wonder do you really tell me everything?
sometimes i can feel it.
is not that i not trust you.
is just that the feeling in my heart is making me thinking so much.
i wanted to tell you, but i scared you will angry.
baby can tell me anything.
i wont angry if you honest with me.
as long as you auto tell me im okay with it.
really! i promise

你到底有没有爱过我？
我真的很想知道！
我真的要你在我的身边永远陪伴我
我的要求是这么简单

i know i had been working never pei you even after work.
you also been very understanding to me, but suddenly things changed.
i know is very hard for you that i never show any care and concern, and love to you.
but i did tried my best to off sat to pei you till late night that i have to take cab home.
have you think of that..
i know i let you wait so long for my text till 10pm.
you have been so understanding to me, i know is my fault that i never pei you text. im sorry honey..
i tried my best, have you seen that?
i know you want someone that can pei you whole day..
im sorry i cant do that due to work.
i know im not a good girlf.
you did so much things for me yet i only did alittle thing for you.
i know you been so nice to me for the past 3 years.
i grateful that you are so nice to me.
cause no one been so nice to me.
you are the first guy..
so bi, can we go back like last time?
i promise you i will change.. can you come back to my side throughout the rest of my life.
i want to have you by my side till the last breath.
can? i really will change.. please!

bi, 

everything gonna stop at 30th,

im really happy that you willing to give us a chance to save this relationship.

is good that you say out how you feel.

i'm sorry i didnt give you the love that you wanted, the care that you want.

and i never pei you due to working,

i know you said that you got gf like no gf, 

im sorry i make you think till like this.

all is my fault, other people gf can pei their bf only ur gf cant pei you.

im sorry! 

other people gf can pei their bf for many days, im sorry i can't.

because of work i neglect you, i know i not a good gf to you.

break ur heart, hurt ur feeling.

you are the best bf i ever had, how i wish time can rewind and let me know you during 2006.

if so, i would choose not work, but work with you or work those simple and easy job.

so like that i got time to pei you now.

i know you sacrifice for me alot.

i didnt really sacrifice for you much.

although i tried to off during saturday, 

i know is not enough for me to pei you.

i know we can fight all the way until you come back oversea.

the most important thing is i scare you will bian xin.

i know you will say you wont but i really scared.

i know im no use, i only know how to cry that all.

no matter how much i cried can never be compared.

i dont how to make you happy, make you laugh.

if one day you really found a very nice girl than me, i wont blame you for leaving me behind.

im glad that you honest with me about ur feelings.

if not i think forever i will not know how you feel.

all i can say is that i really love you alot.

all i can do is to wait for you to come back to my side and realise there is a small changes in me.

love you always honey <3 anything="" care="" div="" know="" let="" me="" muacks="" of="" okay.="" please="" take="" yourself="">

anything can call me.  

We are not getting further. Our distance is not getting far. I know u feel that way. I hate to say that we are not. Dun feel that way. When i saw what you said i feel so sad straight away and my tears just roll down and my heart got this sour feeling. I dun like this kind of feeling. We are not drifting.. no!! I know i keep working never pei you. I end early or i off i never pei you. In sorry. I not a good girlf.. sorry

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while watching a new drama on xin msn which is on channel 8 9pm show.
when watching this show reminds me of my baby.
can't wait for the day to come when me and my baby walk on the carpet together,
handing hands.
follow by announce that we are husband and wife.
living together. thinking of our future together.
plan our house, our children.
take care of children, or we both working hard for our child and future.
be it rich or poor, i'm still willing to stay by ur side to work hard with you.

i want you forever by my side.
if you poor i will go out to work and make you rich.
我要永远缠住你，你是我的宝
我会永远爱你的。我要做你的唯一。

bi when you see this i want to tell you that i really love you.
i don't want to leave you. i be by ur side to pei you as long as i'm alive.
cause i want to take care of you, when you old i want to feed you food, water.
i want to hold your hand and walk the long walkway with you till we're old.
if you can't walk anymore i will push you.
i love you bi, i always want to tell you but i dun have the courage to tell you in face, that i'm sorry that i hurt you last time.
i know you said that past let it past.
but i can never forgive myself.
i will remember what i had done to hurt you.
im sorry bi.

so fast i'm being with you going 3 years le.
i'm happy to have you by my side.
be it happy or sad things happen,
you will always be there for me no matter what.
i'm sorry that sometimes i never accompany you.
i'm sorry that sometimes need you come and fetch me home and meet me at my hse.
i'm happy for what you had done for me.
i'm not a good girlfriend.
i never do anything for you.
make you spend so much money on me.
you always bring me go eat nice food, buy new cute stuff.
spend money on cab.
i love you so much bi.
i will try to change for a better girlfriend for you.
i know i only know how to cry cry cry.
i don't know how to solve the problem.
but believe me  i will change,
i know i always make you angry, sad, heart broken.
because of the incident i make you lost trust in me.
i'm sorry honey. do believe me that i love you alot okay

Feburary
Feb i had my 21st birthday celebration at pasir ris chalet.
Order quite alot of food and cant finish it. Some friend did not turn up!
Relative and friends and my bf friends came too. Thank you for coming to the chalet. I appreciated for ur coming.
Quarrel with bf due to some reason, was having cold war that night. But after that okay already.
After my birthday is chinese new year. Went to both grandma's place for gathering and bai nian. And gambler some, my luck is up and down..

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