fucking dulan.
look at urself in the mirror b4 saying me la.
u think u look very shuai mehhs?
oh please la. for goodness sake, better take care of ur face first b4 saying me la.
are u her dog.. she ask u say wad ni jiu say wad!!
call me chocolate chip wad abt u. so ugly until no1 wants u llorhs. i think u 已身相许 to the pig, the pig also dun wan la. cuz u too ugly lliaos.

come on look at urself...
so fat, like a pig. still dare to say me.
if u r pretty, slim den come and say la.
stop throwing ur own face la.
i dun think u got the face to throw llorhs.
STOP ALL UR NONSENSE LA. BARBIE!!!
think u very pretty ahs., u look at the mirror i think will break into pieces.

if i say abt u den u say me i can accept it. but the problem is i never say YOU lei..
can u make this clear in ur mind!! LOOK URSELF IN THE MIRROR FIRST!! FAT PIG!!!

soon is going to be Friday.
and then weekend is coming.
after weekend PRELIM is coming.
my god i don't wish the day so fast come. if not i sure die.
i haven prepare myself.
everyday i came back home from school my mind first thing was computer.
how how how?? i do not want to fail my n level...
god please help me.
my brain is dying....
i need a super brain like those clever kids.
like that my head does not need to suffer...
why i am not born like those clever kids.

我很想你

today i stayed back to have biology and food&nutrition remedial.
biology remedial teacher go through the specimen paper.
as for f&n is we did dunno when the prelim paper.
next week prelim. i so scare.
after prelim den is actual N level.
i going to have my English, Mathematics and Social Studies for the first 3 paper.
my goodness, i am so afraid that i may fail my N level.
i think i need to buck up in my studies le.
i dun wish to lose to her.
going to have my dinner first and then i go study.

hey peeps,
for those who is taking national exam: jia you for ur N level or O level.

tired days!!

it have been very tired during school days!!
i have to stay until very late.
den whenever i reached home, i dun have the mood to do homework and study.
the moment u reached home, the only thing in my mind is COMPUTER
i cant concentrate.. how??

i freaking hate him manz!!
he say i got a bad mouth. but i told him is i learnt from people that criticize me.
can u put urself in my shoe. u dunno how people criticize when i was young..
u dunno. i think if u were my age and u saw me with those, i bet u would be the same like wad other people is doing..
see me like monster. why can't u all see me as a normal person. although i'm different from u all but treat me like a person can.
u all won't know how i feel... do u know that my heart bleed whenever people criticize me. u dunno how i feel. so stop saying that i dun have kou de la. if u were me i think u also would do the same thing llorhs.

Monday:
went to school at 7 plus. reached home at about 5.30 plus. it is freaking tired lla.... have to go school early and go home late.

Tuesday:
went to school as per normal. 7 plus. finished school at 5pm but me and may xia stay until 5.15 den we go off.
actually muz stay until 5.30 de but he let them go off early. but i still choose to stay awhile.

Wednesday:
tomorrow going to have bio remedial and f&n remedial. sians. ahhs. shit i forgot to bring back my f&n textbook. shit. freak you!!

hellos peeps.
i'm now at RM KFC blog..
currently the idiot is now laughing like nobody business.
going home at 6 plus bahhs. cuz waiting for tiramisu delight.
yea!! chris treat. hehes. yes ahs. haiish boring lei, tmr got social studies milestone. haiish i dunno i can do mahs. if cannot den die lliaos. cuz prelim is coming. haiish..

currently, like so many things happen around me.
haiish i dunno wad to do sia. OMFG!

no mood and nothing to blog already.. sians.

today i reached mall is 10.30am.
actually i should start work at 10am de but during 9.40am i still sleeping.
hahas. den aunty lee mei called me and ask me where am i.
i told her i goin out house le. but den actually i went out of my hse is 10.20am. hahs.
so i change my time to 11am.
reached there went to eat my S.A first. cuz i was feeling hungry.
after eating i start working. i work at base today. wanted to work cashier but feel very sian early morning work cashier.
so i work base with yew hock and lynn. at a certain time lynn got DL!!! that time i was doin shroom sauce.
so scary... it was around 2pm lynn needa fetch his son so she went off and feroz and ririn came i start to slack abit cuz there was not much people. so i run anywhere. today i finally saw PERLYN!!! for so long den i get to see how she look like.
it was around 5.15pm i quickly went to pack my things and wait for tricia to come. cuz me and her going compass help. it was michael and dilip shift. omg that botak is a pervert. he always give me a pervertic face. OMG!!!! eeeeek den tat michael call me jean. i not the jeans horhs. and he call me nui zai oso. u think wad jay chou song ahs nui zai hen mang... lame llorhs. so idiot de sia. today quite fun la. cuz gort that michael and dilip make me and tricia laugh. at 10.00pm still got people sia.. i wan go home de lei. den after close me and tricia went to store room and count money. their type of countin money is different from mall. because their per post is $300 but mall is $200 only. it is much more easier. today my leg so tired and sour like hell man... needa go hang my shirt and pants if not tmr not dry.

why u all got things dun wan tell me and tricia.
if u all dun wan us to knw den in the first place u all should not let us knw all those le mahs.

i like this song!!

言承旭 - 我会很爱你
初次见面就占据我心中
无数星空只为了你等候
每个角落 擦肩而过 被缘分捉弄

突然相遇在转角的街头
太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过 不能错过 对你的承诺

我不太浪漫 你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手 用全力向天空尽情呐喊

我会很爱很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你 四季不休息
打开WALKMAN 随时就能听见你
FEEL MY HEART 我最爱最爱的你

突然相遇在转角的街头
太多感动我只想对你说
快乐难过 不能错过 对你的承诺

我不太浪漫 你说很习惯
我的肩膀给你很多安全感
握紧你的手 用全力向天空尽情呐喊

我会很爱很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 黑夜到黎明
很爱很爱你 四季不休息
打开WALKMAN 随时就能听见你
FEEL MY HEART 我最爱最爱的你
我会很爱你 一百个世纪
很爱很爱你 没人能代替
未来旅行 WALKMAN纪录着爱情
我的心永远不变
我会很爱你 用我的生命
很爱很爱你 你给我勇气
快乐寂寞走到幸福那一头
FEEL MY HEART我最爱最爱的你

i freaking hate mr XXXX.
i damn pissed off because of this thing.
when did i and she call u names?? did we?
dun have lorhs. u tell me la wad names i call u. dun have dun any how say la..
other people oso got say why u never say them lei. u bias say la. no need do until like that de mahs.
other teacher oso never do anything or care so much.
say until i dun have basic manner. if i dun have the basic manner i wont call u mr alrdy. think properly la horhs. principle oso never say outside school or go excursion muz wad wad. mus have fun mahs. we two no wrong lorhs. dun anyhow say me and her..

some things i just cant be bother.
if that's make u think that i changed ur friend, why dun u look urself in the mirror first.
dun u feel u are childish? if u are alone so what? does alone make u short of 1 meat?
NO right!! this is wad u like to say RETRIBUTION. do u still rmb when u keep on say a girl in our class.
i think this is the BAO YING to u bahs for saying people. do u still rmb last time how i help u abt the class tee.
i bet u haven forget abt this bahs. they dun like is u but all things happen i had been helping u. when those thing happen they all keeping saying. although i used to it but do u knw the pain in my heart!! i even help u to get everyone to hate me. not you!! UNDERSTAND!!! i know if i say this u wont believe wad i say, if u treat me good i will treat u good. u go ask my other friend la, have i ever treat them like how i treat u!! because u dun worth for me to treat u good. i wont treat my other friend like this is because they treat me truly.

i knw u may think that i say those is to make u feel pity for me that i helped u . i just wanted to say THANKS being my friend last time. sometimes i see u alone i feel like "i do all this things am i really very bad?". sometimes u really making me pissed off. i do not knw why.

today is extremely tired.
my body is all aching..
i want a an mo yi..

today stay until 5.15 den we get to go home.
today is do maths. therefore my brain cells is lacking alrdy.
omfg.. i need a break pls.
tmr will be finishing at 5.30. hopefully we get to go off early.
tmr is maths again. sians.

it had been 3 days since i last post.
recently got so much things happen to my friends beside me. like bel, tricia, alice, shiying and even myself too.
dun wish to elaborate out.
i got 1 feeling that more things is going to happen around us.
GOD pls bless us that none of us will happen anything.
i think everyone also think that too right?

last 5 days:
Monday:
had stay back in school and do F&N coursework.
everyone stay until 4.30, whereby most of the study already reached home and we still have to do coursework. go school early, thought can go back at 2 plus but we all were wrong, we have to stay back and do coursework.

Tuesday:
as usually lesson time. after school stayed back again to do what, coursework again. boring la. but we get to use laptop to do and the best thing is that got AIRCON!!! nowdays due to the H1N1 we dun get to on AIRCON! you knw how hot is that. and we have to bear the hot and continue the lesson. OMG!! i cant stand it. i bet other class people also like that.

Wednesday:
as usually. lesson den stayed back for coursework. this time same too. stayed until 4.30 den get to go home. lucky got this coursework help us. if not i think i gonna die in that school. if we do not have coursework we have to stay in school for self study until 5 lei.. very tired le still have to stayed back..

thursday:
same lesson and coursework. as usually stayed back until 4.30 to complete the amendments.

friday:
stay back too. until 3 plus den i get to go home. cuz we need to complete the amendments and print the coursework out for submission. haiish very scared sia, dunno whether will pass anot. now will die le. cuz from monday onwards we need to stay back for remedial and self study le. heard Monday is until 4.30, Tuesday is until 5.30, Wednesday is 5, Thursday till 5 and friday till 3.30. sian how am i going to survive from all this. i sure will fall asleep de llorhhs...

God please HELP ME!!!!

DeMing this post is specially for you.

thanks for all this few months.
thanks for console me when i'm sad or whenever there's something happen to me.
is nice to have u as my friend.
although we cant. you should know. but i still treat u as my best best best friend.
i hope u can do that as u promise me that i'm always ur best friend.
i hope u wont make me disappointed. because i trust u more than i trust other people.
i know u do not want me to be sad because of you, but i promise you that i try not to okay?
i still hope that u will always be my listening ear and i'm always be ur listening ear can??
even if u and the girl together i hope if u got anything u can tell me like how we like last time.
and u still like call me to chat.
dun forget me when u got her le.
must forever remember me. if not i die i will go and haunt you!!

please take good care of yourself and must study hard and achieve ur dreams.
i also will work hard for my N level. i hope u can give me the support and ur concern whenever i need you!!
must reply my message when i sms u. dun keep on sms with her jiu forget me le.
maybe we remain as friend is a good choice bahhs. at least we are still very good and close friend. right?

lastly. take care.
i think give me time to cool myself down.
temporary i wont contact you or click u at msn.
i need to forget everything.
when it's time le den i will contact you!!
anyway last long with her..

this video is super funny/.......




here are all the names and the group where they are from:

2AM:
jokwon (yellow)

2PM:
jaebom (dark pink)
taecyeon (orange)
nickhun (purple)

SJ:
eunhyuk (green)
yesung (peach)
shindong (maroon)
sungmin (blue)

SHINee:
key (light pink)

its been 5 days that i never update my blog.
hahas. now i in school using laptop.
hahas. good right. but the worst part is that i have to do my coursework.
recently feeling very sad. because of CHAN DEMING.
he got people he like le. good for him.
although feel happy for him and feel sad for me.
i still thought that 1 day i may ahem...
now the hope is gone..
hope 1 day it will come back to me...
currently looking for songs. all the song make me feel so boring.

nowdays i have been acting i very happy, but actually is not.
many things had happen to me this month.
GOD why choose me. why is me. can't be other people.
why all things happen to me... ahhhh. i dun wan this type of life.

yoyos.
currently now in school using laptop.
suppose to be doing coursework.
dun feel like doing.
still have to write comment about the research.
i cant think of any in mind la.
later working. sians. ahem shift.
sure very boring de.
later gonna suffer from her.
shiying not working.
i think she will come bahhs. cuz she wont be staying home de.
unless she want to save money den she will stay at home.
dunno later work wad time. gonna ask ppl help me check. hope is 6pm.
cuz work at 6pm the time will pass more faster. not like 4pm or 5pm.
not sure whether i work base or cashier?
today i think got tricia work. if dun have den can go home early and rest.
cuz tmr working morning. good sia. can work sat morning.
and sunday morning toos. xD

i feel so fuck up nowadays. i dunno why.
mayb is i think too much bahhs. sians. BORING~~~
feeling so sad.. feelin emo..
i change my msn nick. i put feelin emo. then qite alot ppl come and ask me why i emo.
dun worry i'm fine de. i need time to think. beacuse i scare i make a wrong decision. then i will regret of what i had done.

needa go liaos. later teacher see i will die. then i cant edit my course work le. den fail i have to cry to death lliaos.

time checked.
now is 1.58am going to be 2am.
tomorrow working at 4pm.
sians.
work base.
luckily no need to cook chicken.
got the who to cook chicken.

this week just start school.
feel so boring.
have to keep on take temperature.
so sian..
next thurs i going to take my n level english oral le..
sianns..
so scary sia.
i haven complete my holiday homework sia.
i think need to chiong le..
sians.
heng monday is holiday i can complete all the homework.
tuesday go school sure die de.
i never pass up my thursday de maths homework.
n level is getting nearer and nearer..
i cannot let it win.
if nt will hao lian..

this few days i dunno why i get so frustrated so easily..