About 2 weeks plus you jiu coming back le. Now short of one staff. I dunno i still can pei you on sat anot.. I scare because of work our distance become far. I also scared that one day you will leave me. Like how other guy leAve me cuz i got not enough time to pei you. Im really scare. If one day really happen i dunno how to continue to survive in this world. 

Imissyou

I'm sorry I cause so much trouble to you.
I just want all these to stop.
I just want everything back to last time.
I just the happy us back together again.
Bi I really love you a lot.
Don't leave me can?
I want you by my side. Imi

sometimes i wonder do you really tell me everything?
sometimes i can feel it.
is not that i not trust you.
is just that the feeling in my heart is making me thinking so much.
i wanted to tell you, but i scared you will angry.
baby can tell me anything.
i wont angry if you honest with me.
as long as you auto tell me im okay with it.
really! i promise

你到底有没有爱过我？
我真的很想知道！
我真的要你在我的身边永远陪伴我
我的要求是这么简单

i know i had been working never pei you even after work.
you also been very understanding to me, but suddenly things changed.
i know is very hard for you that i never show any care and concern, and love to you.
but i did tried my best to off sat to pei you till late night that i have to take cab home.
have you think of that..
i know i let you wait so long for my text till 10pm.
you have been so understanding to me, i know is my fault that i never pei you text. im sorry honey..
i tried my best, have you seen that?
i know you want someone that can pei you whole day..
im sorry i cant do that due to work.
i know im not a good girlf.
you did so much things for me yet i only did alittle thing for you.
i know you been so nice to me for the past 3 years.
i grateful that you are so nice to me.
cause no one been so nice to me.
you are the first guy..
so bi, can we go back like last time?
i promise you i will change.. can you come back to my side throughout the rest of my life.
i want to have you by my side till the last breath.
can? i really will change.. please!

bi, 

everything gonna stop at 30th,

im really happy that you willing to give us a chance to save this relationship.

is good that you say out how you feel.

i'm sorry i didnt give you the love that you wanted, the care that you want.

and i never pei you due to working,

i know you said that you got gf like no gf, 

im sorry i make you think till like this.

all is my fault, other people gf can pei their bf only ur gf cant pei you.

im sorry! 

other people gf can pei their bf for many days, im sorry i can't.

because of work i neglect you, i know i not a good gf to you.

break ur heart, hurt ur feeling.

you are the best bf i ever had, how i wish time can rewind and let me know you during 2006.

if so, i would choose not work, but work with you or work those simple and easy job.

so like that i got time to pei you now.

i know you sacrifice for me alot.

i didnt really sacrifice for you much.

although i tried to off during saturday, 

i know is not enough for me to pei you.

i know we can fight all the way until you come back oversea.

the most important thing is i scare you will bian xin.

i know you will say you wont but i really scared.

i know im no use, i only know how to cry that all.

no matter how much i cried can never be compared.

i dont how to make you happy, make you laugh.

if one day you really found a very nice girl than me, i wont blame you for leaving me behind.

im glad that you honest with me about ur feelings.

if not i think forever i will not know how you feel.

all i can say is that i really love you alot.

all i can do is to wait for you to come back to my side and realise there is a small changes in me.

love you always honey <3 anything="" care="" div="" know="" let="" me="" muacks="" of="" okay.="" please="" take="" yourself="">

anything can call me.  

We are not getting further. Our distance is not getting far. I know u feel that way. I hate to say that we are not. Dun feel that way. When i saw what you said i feel so sad straight away and my tears just roll down and my heart got this sour feeling. I dun like this kind of feeling. We are not drifting.. no!! I know i keep working never pei you. I end early or i off i never pei you. In sorry. I not a good girlf.. sorry

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while watching a new drama on xin msn which is on channel 8 9pm show.
when watching this show reminds me of my baby.
can't wait for the day to come when me and my baby walk on the carpet together,
handing hands.
follow by announce that we are husband and wife.
living together. thinking of our future together.
plan our house, our children.
take care of children, or we both working hard for our child and future.
be it rich or poor, i'm still willing to stay by ur side to work hard with you.

i want you forever by my side.
if you poor i will go out to work and make you rich.
我要永远缠住你，你是我的宝
我会永远爱你的。我要做你的唯一。

bi when you see this i want to tell you that i really love you.
i don't want to leave you. i be by ur side to pei you as long as i'm alive.
cause i want to take care of you, when you old i want to feed you food, water.
i want to hold your hand and walk the long walkway with you till we're old.
if you can't walk anymore i will push you.
i love you bi, i always want to tell you but i dun have the courage to tell you in face, that i'm sorry that i hurt you last time.
i know you said that past let it past.
but i can never forgive myself.
i will remember what i had done to hurt you.
im sorry bi.

so fast i'm being with you going 3 years le.
i'm happy to have you by my side.
be it happy or sad things happen,
you will always be there for me no matter what.
i'm sorry that sometimes i never accompany you.
i'm sorry that sometimes need you come and fetch me home and meet me at my hse.
i'm happy for what you had done for me.
i'm not a good girlfriend.
i never do anything for you.
make you spend so much money on me.
you always bring me go eat nice food, buy new cute stuff.
spend money on cab.
i love you so much bi.
i will try to change for a better girlfriend for you.
i know i only know how to cry cry cry.
i don't know how to solve the problem.
but believe me  i will change,
i know i always make you angry, sad, heart broken.
because of the incident i make you lost trust in me.
i'm sorry honey. do believe me that i love you alot okay

Feburary
Feb i had my 21st birthday celebration at pasir ris chalet.
Order quite alot of food and cant finish it. Some friend did not turn up!
Relative and friends and my bf friends came too. Thank you for coming to the chalet. I appreciated for ur coming.
Quarrel with bf due to some reason, was having cold war that night. But after that okay already.
After my birthday is chinese new year. Went to both grandma's place for gathering and bai nian. And gambler some, my luck is up and down..

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it's been a month since i last wrote.
baby now having his driving course.
i get to see him quite many times a week sometimes.
not like last time we only meet once a week.
i quite happy actually.
but sometimes i angry with myself.
cause i always make him angry,worry.
i know he is my darling, but i still don't wish to make him angry,worry or sometimes sad.
i'm sorry if i always make you piss off,upset.
i will try my best not to make you angry.
i will try to change for a better gf.

sometimes due to working schedule, i can only get to meet you after work which is after 10 pm.
the most i can only accompany you till 1 plus or 2.
always let you see my tired face, then you will start to worry that whether i got enough rest anot.
sorry honey, make you worry.

i know somtimes i always take thousand years to reply your text.
i'm sorry cause sometimes i really never notice it when i using com, or watching tv.
sometimes when you get angry, i will start to blame myself for making you angry again.
the only thing i know is to cry only.
i know you dont like me to cry, cause you not beside me cannot lend me your shoulder.
but as long as your soul are with me, i'm happy already.
i'm sorry sometimes i can't give you what you want from me.
sometimes i really want to change for you. but i know it takes time.
so i hope you can forgive me for what i had done in the past.
i still love you so much that nothing can compare.
we had been together for 2 years 5 months and 14 days.
very soon we gonna be 2 years 6 months. then follow by 3 years.
i will not leave you no matter what.
unless you don't want me anymore.
i love you baby 

recently we like having cold war at night.
i don't know is it he feeling tired or i piss him off.
i keep on ask him what happen?
boyf will always tell me nothing.
but i know there's something wrong.
so i stop asking, then my tears starts to flow out.
then i started crying.
i think alot , is it my fault that cause all these.
i know boyf will not tell me de..
i'm sorry i can't accompany you this week,
i got to work. i don't know when can i meet you,see you, hug you, kiss you.

2 days without your text and without your call.. i feel so lonely.. i miss you hell lots bi. Can faster come back? I want hug you, kiss you, sayang you, and say i love you to you.. i really love you alot.. cant wait to see you!!

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Baby, doesn't matter you gonna stay in camp for this whole week..
Although I can't see you and meet you, I will still love and miss you de..
I know you are sad cause you can't see me, meet me..
Next week we can meet up ah..
Dont think about it anymore.. I know you love me very much.. I love you very much too...
I won't throw you alone there de. I will pei you de..
Sorry I cry, cuz I really can't help you bear some of the pain..

So fast you go no already one month le... Still got 23 months to go.. Cant wait for your pop.. Then like that you got more time to pei me... No matter what I will wait for you de... No matter what I won't leave you de.. Cause I love you so much.. Then after you finish ns we can't apply for our house.. Can't wait to stay together with you.. Can't wait to see your face everyday.. Even when I wake up you are beside me.. Every night say good night to you.. Accompany you eat breakfast, lunch and dinner.. Very fast gonna end the month of July.. Which mean is our 2 years 2 months anniversary.. Can't wait to celebrate more anniversary with you bi.. I love you so much.. Can't wait for every weekend so I can see you or meet you..

180612
Today we quarrel again. My heart feel so pain for the past few days..
Keep on crying and crying at night till i fall aslp..
Today i quarrel with my baby..
Until now, we haven okay..
Dont know what wrong with this week..
I reallyove you de bi.
宝贝，我真的不想你离开我， 我真的需要你在我的身边。我爱你宝贝

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170612
We had a small quarrel.. we quarrel abt our meeting day..
Bi im sorry i cant give you what you want.. but believe me i really tried my best le.. i promise you i will try to off on weekend sometimes.. i want you to know that not i dun want pei you.. i miss and love you alot bi.. i really do..

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Sorry bi.. i say i will call you when i end work.. sorry i make you wait for my call cuz i short 11 dollars.. so i keep on count and count money.. when i count finish you alrdy lights off and you when to sleep le.. dui bu qi..

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IM SORRY BABY

Bi im really of what happen.. i know you wont fully trust me of what i said.. i know no matter what i say you wont believe me.. i know i not a good gf.. i dont you leave me.. i know i always make you disappointed.. i keep on make you angry.. i not a good gf. I love you alot bi.. you mean so much to me.. i cant survive without you.. you dont leave me and dont bu li wo hao ma.. i never be a good gf.. i make you angry so many times.. if you leave me i wont blame you de.. cuz i know i not good.. i know you will hate me.. i just dont know how to appreciate you only.. you are so good to me yet i always like that treat you.. make you heart pain.. i will love you no matter what.. (: i love you bi.. sorry..

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i know you are tired
but when you suddenly fall asleep and i cant contact you
my heart fell so upset
cause didn't receive your message and you didn't answer my call
i keep on think why you never reply me
i very scare that you didn't reply or answer my call means you don't want me le.
really very scared.
i'm sorry i think that way again.
cause i cant bear to let you go.
i need you by my side.
i know go ns is no choice have to go.
but i want you to know that i really cant bear to let you go.
i want you all by my side whenever anything happen
always think about you might leave me or go to ns my tears will automatic flow out from my eyes.
you are so important to me.
no one ever so concern about me.
our 2 years is coming and you are going to enlist to ns le
like that our meeting is getting lesser and lesser le.
when i work morning no one will fetch me go home le.
unless its fall on weekends.
bi i want to tell you i really love you alot.
nothing gonna change my love for you.
i will be there for you no matter what.
i will wait for you to finish ur ns.

I think i do wrong things again.. i shouldn't ask you to repeat.. so that you wont shout at me le.. im sorry for making you angry all the time.. dui bu qi.. just now you shouted me make me feel so scared you know.. i know is my fault..

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