missing you is part of my routine now.
watching my drama now and my mind keep on flash with your image.
every time saw you my heart beat faster and faster until it so hard to breathe.
and my face turn red within 1 min.
that's fast. every moment feel like seeing you.
but i know cant.
how i wish you were staying at the same block as me.
because like that after work i can wait for you, you can wait for me and we can go home together.
its that sweet!! (:

missing you

I'm missing you like no tomorrow.
never see you gives me bad mood.
i don't mind waiting for your text everyday.
you seems very irritated whenever i text you
every time i read your old text
my face automatically will smile,
sometimes i feel so sweet when you say you miss me.
I'm so happy!
feeling tired and my eyes is closing soon.
boy, i miss you!!

girlfriend,
cheer up alright?
i want the old you, not now the you!!
he dun wan you is he stupid.
dun because of one tree you give up the whole forest!
fall down already must straight away stand up.
don't sit down there and wait.
i know you love this guy a lot.
but is he doing the same?
so it's not worth it.
cheer up! anything text me!!

i like to wait for your text every night.
no matter now late i'm willing to wait.
this is how i am when i'm waiting for your text.

am i feeling hungry that's why i'm feeling dizzy and feel like vomiting?
aiyo how i was you was beside me.
and my eyes going to close already.
going sleep already.
good night peeps.

Am i falling in love with you?
Am i? I'm confuse.

now i'm kinda confuse
i do have good feelings for you
but i don't know what to do.
what should i do?
can you tell me?
i don't know i like you or i love you.
i don't dare to say because i scare being hurt also can say i that i scare you are being hurt too!
i don't want to repeat the history again for you.
i don't understand what i'm thinking.

what happen to me now?
suddenly i feel like crying!
oh my god! am i jealous or what?
why i got that feeling?

i want to scream out loud.
school is starting just 1 more day!
why can't give us holiday more longer!!
i don't wish to go school on monday
stomach cramp must go school, somemore the first day got PE.
i hate to have PE when i have stomach cramp.
painful like hell!!

so long didn't update my blog already.
had been working for the past few weeks.
was too lazy to update too!
going out in the morning with my mum and sis.
mum went for appointment.
might went to IKEA to buy new fan.
gonna stop on air-con cuz it starts to rain in my room!!
hahas jkjk is the air-con start to drip water again. sians.
in the middle of the night can go toilet cuz if go the floor will be damn wet!!
time check: 2.46 am
i'm still infront of the com and update.
going to slp alrdy, needa wake up at 7 plus later!!
urgggg!!! sian after that have to go work!!
aiyo. so tired! no choice because of handphone bill have to work more days during holidays!
sync so long still haven okays.. wth!

had been sick since Saturday.
having high fever that day.
my temperature was 39.4 degree.
was so tired and no strength to move everywhere!
went to see doctor and i got 2 days mc.
now fever is gone but cough and sore throat is still here!
so not fully recover.
next monday going watch movie with shiying.
still dunno meeting her what time.
i think shall meet her in the late afternoon or evening bahhs.
should call other ppl go also?
should ask her whether she want anot.
i guess if all girls should be fun!
tata gonna rest now.

i like falling in love with thai song.
their song meaning is damn sad sia.
i went to search for his name in msn,
guess what i found his account.
and the display picture is him and a girl.
i dunno what to react at that moment of time.
how i wish someone was beside me and lend me shoulder for me to lean.
slowly tears rolled down my cheek.
i felt damn sad, i also dunno why.
i know that feeling fade. but why i still cry?
i dun get it.
everything is not right for me.
yesterday night i found out that he's playing.
and today i lai ang.
damn suay. i dunno what to do sia.
haiish. i want to forget what i saw,
but the image just keep on appear in my mind.
fcuk sia. damn irritating la!!!
get out of my brain now.
i dun wish to see you anymore.
hope you and the girl last long.
they had been together since last year November 16.
which is we stead for 1 year and 6 days he got another girlfriend behind my back.
haiish.

woke up at 7.15am, went to bathe and prepare.
went out of house at 8.20am.
reach mrt station was about 8.30plus, went into the cabin and waited for the train to move.
stand for about 15 mins the train is still not moving, see alot of people went out of the cabin to take cab to work. but i choose to stand there and wait.
i have the intention to take cab to school.
it was wasting money as today i does not want to reach school on time. so i choose to wait for the train to move. and i dun want to waste my money when i didnt even take the train.
reach serangoon my leg totally went jelly type. i cant even walk properly sia.
i slowly walk to circle line. reach bishan slowly walk to school. i cant take it anymore.
i need to sit more. i went to the class and teacher ask me why i was late.
i shout across to the teacher that i was stuck in the train for 1 and half hour.
1 of my classmate say so kua zhang but its true. i didnt lie.
alot of ppl was stuck in the train too.
what a unlucky day i have today.

wth.
and now you got another blog never tell me.
is this call friends?
now i knw that a 7 days boyfriend can replace a 3 years plus good friends.
i dunno what to say anymore.
you changed so much.
are you still the ISEBELLA KANG GUI LAN that i know from 3 years ago?
and now you make me drop tears again.
you know how much you meant to me anot.
i really treat you as my good good good friends.
you know how important you are in my life anot.
i never blame you for lying to me alrdy.
but i need time to forget all this.
now i wonder are we still friends?
i alrdy give you all my blessing,
why you still like this?
why dun wan to let me know?
stop hiding things away from me can anot.
just tell me the truth is that so difficult.
i wont blame you anymore.
i just want all the truth.

this time you make me very disappointed.
you stead with him why don't dare tell me, you should know me well.
i won't because you stead with him and don't be your friend anymore.
i won't okays. get this right!
you should know if you tell me in the first place i wont be that sad rather than now right.
and the answer you told me is that you yi shi wang ji.
how can that be, you my close friend lei.
not those normal friend lei.
some more that time at chalet you know that i dui him you hao gan.
and you went to hospital to visit him, nvm i thought you really go visit your friend.
and when you got stead, i ask you who.
you lie to me, you tell me is ur gb hse there de.
nvm, i believe you.
when you stead with him, and you know that we are monster and hamster.
you still can choose not to tell me.
what is this?
should friends do that.
i dun think so. how can you do that?
after i find sth fishy i ask you.
you still tell me you dunno who.
again you lie to me .
is it so difficult to tell me the truth?
i know you will say you dun wan to be hurt or break our friendship.
have you ever see me do that ?
let say jenson la.
that time tricia like him and they stead,
did i say i want to break friendship with tricia?
no right.?
we been friends for like going 3 years and you still dunno wo de wei ren mehs?
every time something happen between us the trust is not there.
then because you were my girlfriend and my closest friend i choose to forgive you and help you build the trust in my heart.
again the trust is broken, nvm i help you build again.
because you were my girlfriend and my closest friend ever i choose to do these.
maybe you will say i also never ask you to help me build the trust, is you ownself want to build it.
okays, everything is wo zi yuan de.
because i thought you will change whenever we quarrel or sth.
from my first impression of you being my friends you change from bad to worst.
i cant believe that. but i still choose to be friends with you.
you hong never mind. i nothing to say.
i let you hong. but you seems like getting guo fen and guo fen.
i still choose to be ur friends.


sometimes i still think are you worth for me to do these?
i told myself because i treat you as my girlfriend, closest friend and good friend, so i do all these is worth it. but now i dunno what to tell myself what to do. everytime i choose to forgive you, you know how much pain i suffer anot?
because of you i cried when chatting with you on msn. 

i have so long didn't do cook already.
juilin work with us she doesn't want to do cook.
hock can't cook due to he's tired
so i say i do cook.
in the end was abit regretted.
now my body ache .
now do cook have to change this change that.
so troublesome.
waste my energy.
was working until 2pm because of lacking of chicken so i do until 2 plus den i still have to clean and wash the OR port.
was damn hot and have to scrub like no tomorrow.
so suay sia my hand.
went home around 3.30pm.
so tired. went to sleep awhile but still tired.
wake up went to Punggol Plaza with sister to buy dinner.
now was feeling hungry i think. omg. how could this be.
ahhhs.... help me!!! i don't want to grow fat!
my eye lid is half open.
gonna go sleep soon.
nights people : D

went to meet shiying at compass to pass her,
her ipod and poker card.
after that went to eat at pizza hut.
saw quite familiar faces in pizza hut.
after eating, we craving for durian pancake.
we bought 4, 2 each.
omg, somemore we just finish eating pizza.
omg!!! after buy went to block to huhu!
sitted at staircase for awhile and went to punggol interchange.
went to sit at the entrance of the other side of mrt station.
at there huhu, then went to wait for bus.
went we walking to sit down at the chair, we walk pass a china man,
suddenly we heard something weird.
we stun and we went to sit other side.
guess what we hear??
is a girl at there moaning!
omg!! went we walk pass we heard girl moaning means,
the guy is watching porn.
we went silence and we laugh .
omg, how can he do that in public.
somemore went we walk pass him, the volume seems louder and louder.
sibei siasuay sia!!
omg!!!cant believe that..
my 3 weeks of holiday only left 2 weeks plus
open school gonna chiong studies already.
sians. omg. CS still got 6 chapters haven study!!
hope open school time pass slowly. but not too slowly!

currently in school now.
today is the last day of school for ite students!
almost half of the class didn't come.
class will be quiet.
so good. isn't it!
hahas.. i sound bad sia!
but without them no fun!
at least will have joke to hear,
then we can exercise our mouth jaw!
hahas...
gonna enjoy myself with friends during this 3 weeks of holiday!

finally I'm done with all my CA!
now is the time to relax.
tomorrow is last day of school,
then i will have my 3 weeks of holiday!
*laugh laugh*
should i go and work?
haven decide yet, need to chiong work and earn back my money!
now i'm broke, and i haven pay my handphone bills.
and i also want to change handphone.
ohGOD! please let my mum strike 4D,
so i can ask her buy handphone for me!!!
going holiday for ite students.
and going to be school reopen for secondary.

came across my friend blog,
and she put thailand music so i went to listen.
OMG~ the song is damn nice and touching!
here is the video(L):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEIxZcszyKQ&feature=player_embedded# (part 1)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mzcqO-bdHZo (part 2)
this is damn nice!