突然想写华文。
前几天才听到他们分手了。
还说那时我鼓励她跟你分手。
我记得我没有说分手才是好的选择。
算了，事情都过了很久。
现在是他们和好就是一件好事。

一转眼时间就过了四年了。
我们在一起经过了风风雨雨。
在一起过了很多开心和不开心的事。
但是我依然很爱很爱你
不管你有钱还是没钱我都会在你身边陪着你。


林家盛，
我爱你宝贝！！

i know you are busy today.
you been driving since last night.
although you free you will text me.
i feel so happy to see your text.
but we talk awhile you are busy again.
although i quite upset cause i cant talk to you again.
i see you so tired, i'm so upset.
i know no choice cause this is army.
but i just xin tong to see you so tired.
this days i mc due to leg,
im still worried about you so much.
whether you got enough rest anot.
i hope you are doing fine.
i love you honey :D 

im sorry honey, i just want you to know how i feel.



i know is i think to much le
i know i'm a very easy jealous person.
when i know you started talking with ur friend's girlf
my mind was like anyhow think already.
i know is i anyhow think
i just dont like the feeling when i saw you two the conversation
i know you two just friends.
i know you wont bian xin.
i just scared so much.
but i just cant help not to think about it.
i wanted to tell you how i feel
but i just cant open up my heart and mouth to tell you.
im jealous ):

About 2 weeks plus you jiu coming back le. Now short of one staff. I dunno i still can pei you on sat anot.. I scare because of work our distance become far. I also scared that one day you will leave me. Like how other guy leAve me cuz i got not enough time to pei you. Im really scare. If one day really happen i dunno how to continue to survive in this world. 

Imissyou

I'm sorry I cause so much trouble to you.
I just want all these to stop.
I just want everything back to last time.
I just the happy us back together again.
Bi I really love you a lot.
Don't leave me can?
I want you by my side. Imi

sometimes i wonder do you really tell me everything?
sometimes i can feel it.
is not that i not trust you.
is just that the feeling in my heart is making me thinking so much.
i wanted to tell you, but i scared you will angry.
baby can tell me anything.
i wont angry if you honest with me.
as long as you auto tell me im okay with it.
really! i promise

你到底有没有爱过我？
我真的很想知道！
我真的要你在我的身边永远陪伴我
我的要求是这么简单

i know i had been working never pei you even after work.
you also been very understanding to me, but suddenly things changed.
i know is very hard for you that i never show any care and concern, and love to you.
but i did tried my best to off sat to pei you till late night that i have to take cab home.
have you think of that..
i know i let you wait so long for my text till 10pm.
you have been so understanding to me, i know is my fault that i never pei you text. im sorry honey..
i tried my best, have you seen that?
i know you want someone that can pei you whole day..
im sorry i cant do that due to work.
i know im not a good girlf.
you did so much things for me yet i only did alittle thing for you.
i know you been so nice to me for the past 3 years.
i grateful that you are so nice to me.
cause no one been so nice to me.
you are the first guy..
so bi, can we go back like last time?
i promise you i will change.. can you come back to my side throughout the rest of my life.
i want to have you by my side till the last breath.
can? i really will change.. please!

bi, 

everything gonna stop at 30th,

im really happy that you willing to give us a chance to save this relationship.

is good that you say out how you feel.

i'm sorry i didnt give you the love that you wanted, the care that you want.

and i never pei you due to working,

i know you said that you got gf like no gf, 

im sorry i make you think till like this.

all is my fault, other people gf can pei their bf only ur gf cant pei you.

im sorry! 

other people gf can pei their bf for many days, im sorry i can't.

because of work i neglect you, i know i not a good gf to you.

break ur heart, hurt ur feeling.

you are the best bf i ever had, how i wish time can rewind and let me know you during 2006.

if so, i would choose not work, but work with you or work those simple and easy job.

so like that i got time to pei you now.

i know you sacrifice for me alot.

i didnt really sacrifice for you much.

although i tried to off during saturday, 

i know is not enough for me to pei you.

i know we can fight all the way until you come back oversea.

the most important thing is i scare you will bian xin.

i know you will say you wont but i really scared.

i know im no use, i only know how to cry that all.

no matter how much i cried can never be compared.

i dont how to make you happy, make you laugh.

if one day you really found a very nice girl than me, i wont blame you for leaving me behind.

im glad that you honest with me about ur feelings.

if not i think forever i will not know how you feel.

all i can say is that i really love you alot.

all i can do is to wait for you to come back to my side and realise there is a small changes in me.

love you always honey <3 anything="" care="" div="" know="" let="" me="" muacks="" of="" okay.="" please="" take="" yourself="">

anything can call me.  

We are not getting further. Our distance is not getting far. I know u feel that way. I hate to say that we are not. Dun feel that way. When i saw what you said i feel so sad straight away and my tears just roll down and my heart got this sour feeling. I dun like this kind of feeling. We are not drifting.. no!! I know i keep working never pei you. I end early or i off i never pei you. In sorry. I not a good girlf.. sorry

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while watching a new drama on xin msn which is on channel 8 9pm show.
when watching this show reminds me of my baby.
can't wait for the day to come when me and my baby walk on the carpet together,
handing hands.
follow by announce that we are husband and wife.
living together. thinking of our future together.
plan our house, our children.
take care of children, or we both working hard for our child and future.
be it rich or poor, i'm still willing to stay by ur side to work hard with you.

i want you forever by my side.
if you poor i will go out to work and make you rich.
我要永远缠住你，你是我的宝
我会永远爱你的。我要做你的唯一。

bi when you see this i want to tell you that i really love you.
i don't want to leave you. i be by ur side to pei you as long as i'm alive.
cause i want to take care of you, when you old i want to feed you food, water.
i want to hold your hand and walk the long walkway with you till we're old.
if you can't walk anymore i will push you.
i love you bi, i always want to tell you but i dun have the courage to tell you in face, that i'm sorry that i hurt you last time.
i know you said that past let it past.
but i can never forgive myself.
i will remember what i had done to hurt you.
im sorry bi.

so fast i'm being with you going 3 years le.
i'm happy to have you by my side.
be it happy or sad things happen,
you will always be there for me no matter what.
i'm sorry that sometimes i never accompany you.
i'm sorry that sometimes need you come and fetch me home and meet me at my hse.
i'm happy for what you had done for me.
i'm not a good girlfriend.
i never do anything for you.
make you spend so much money on me.
you always bring me go eat nice food, buy new cute stuff.
spend money on cab.
i love you so much bi.
i will try to change for a better girlfriend for you.
i know i only know how to cry cry cry.
i don't know how to solve the problem.
but believe me  i will change,
i know i always make you angry, sad, heart broken.
because of the incident i make you lost trust in me.
i'm sorry honey. do believe me that i love you alot okay

Feburary
Feb i had my 21st birthday celebration at pasir ris chalet.
Order quite alot of food and cant finish it. Some friend did not turn up!
Relative and friends and my bf friends came too. Thank you for coming to the chalet. I appreciated for ur coming.
Quarrel with bf due to some reason, was having cold war that night. But after that okay already.
After my birthday is chinese new year. Went to both grandma's place for gathering and bai nian. And gambler some, my luck is up and down..

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it's been a month since i last wrote.
baby now having his driving course.
i get to see him quite many times a week sometimes.
not like last time we only meet once a week.
i quite happy actually.
but sometimes i angry with myself.
cause i always make him angry,worry.
i know he is my darling, but i still don't wish to make him angry,worry or sometimes sad.
i'm sorry if i always make you piss off,upset.
i will try my best not to make you angry.
i will try to change for a better gf.

sometimes due to working schedule, i can only get to meet you after work which is after 10 pm.
the most i can only accompany you till 1 plus or 2.
always let you see my tired face, then you will start to worry that whether i got enough rest anot.
sorry honey, make you worry.

i know somtimes i always take thousand years to reply your text.
i'm sorry cause sometimes i really never notice it when i using com, or watching tv.
sometimes when you get angry, i will start to blame myself for making you angry again.
the only thing i know is to cry only.
i know you dont like me to cry, cause you not beside me cannot lend me your shoulder.
but as long as your soul are with me, i'm happy already.
i'm sorry sometimes i can't give you what you want from me.
sometimes i really want to change for you. but i know it takes time.
so i hope you can forgive me for what i had done in the past.
i still love you so much that nothing can compare.
we had been together for 2 years 5 months and 14 days.
very soon we gonna be 2 years 6 months. then follow by 3 years.
i will not leave you no matter what.
unless you don't want me anymore.
i love you baby 

recently we like having cold war at night.
i don't know is it he feeling tired or i piss him off.
i keep on ask him what happen?
boyf will always tell me nothing.
but i know there's something wrong.
so i stop asking, then my tears starts to flow out.
then i started crying.
i think alot , is it my fault that cause all these.
i know boyf will not tell me de..
i'm sorry i can't accompany you this week,
i got to work. i don't know when can i meet you,see you, hug you, kiss you.

2 days without your text and without your call.. i feel so lonely.. i miss you hell lots bi. Can faster come back? I want hug you, kiss you, sayang you, and say i love you to you.. i really love you alot.. cant wait to see you!!

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Baby, doesn't matter you gonna stay in camp for this whole week..
Although I can't see you and meet you, I will still love and miss you de..
I know you are sad cause you can't see me, meet me..
Next week we can meet up ah..
Dont think about it anymore.. I know you love me very much.. I love you very much too...
I won't throw you alone there de. I will pei you de..
Sorry I cry, cuz I really can't help you bear some of the pain..

So fast you go no already one month le... Still got 23 months to go.. Cant wait for your pop.. Then like that you got more time to pei me... No matter what I will wait for you de... No matter what I won't leave you de.. Cause I love you so much.. Then after you finish ns we can't apply for our house.. Can't wait to stay together with you.. Can't wait to see your face everyday.. Even when I wake up you are beside me.. Every night say good night to you.. Accompany you eat breakfast, lunch and dinner.. Very fast gonna end the month of July.. Which mean is our 2 years 2 months anniversary.. Can't wait to celebrate more anniversary with you bi.. I love you so much.. Can't wait for every weekend so I can see you or meet you..

180612
Today we quarrel again. My heart feel so pain for the past few days..
Keep on crying and crying at night till i fall aslp..
Today i quarrel with my baby..
Until now, we haven okay..
Dont know what wrong with this week..
I reallyove you de bi.
宝贝，我真的不想你离开我， 我真的需要你在我的身边。我爱你宝贝

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We had a small quarrel.. we quarrel abt our meeting day..
Bi im sorry i cant give you what you want.. but believe me i really tried my best le.. i promise you i will try to off on weekend sometimes.. i want you to know that not i dun want pei you.. i miss and love you alot bi.. i really do..

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Sorry bi.. i say i will call you when i end work.. sorry i make you wait for my call cuz i short 11 dollars.. so i keep on count and count money.. when i count finish you alrdy lights off and you when to sleep le.. dui bu qi..

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IM SORRY BABY

Bi im really of what happen.. i know you wont fully trust me of what i said.. i know no matter what i say you wont believe me.. i know i not a good gf.. i dont you leave me.. i know i always make you disappointed.. i keep on make you angry.. i not a good gf. I love you alot bi.. you mean so much to me.. i cant survive without you.. you dont leave me and dont bu li wo hao ma.. i never be a good gf.. i make you angry so many times.. if you leave me i wont blame you de.. cuz i know i not good.. i know you will hate me.. i just dont know how to appreciate you only.. you are so good to me yet i always like that treat you.. make you heart pain.. i will love you no matter what.. (: i love you bi.. sorry..

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i know you are tired
but when you suddenly fall asleep and i cant contact you
my heart fell so upset
cause didn't receive your message and you didn't answer my call
i keep on think why you never reply me
i very scare that you didn't reply or answer my call means you don't want me le.
really very scared.
i'm sorry i think that way again.
cause i cant bear to let you go.
i need you by my side.
i know go ns is no choice have to go.
but i want you to know that i really cant bear to let you go.
i want you all by my side whenever anything happen
always think about you might leave me or go to ns my tears will automatic flow out from my eyes.
you are so important to me.
no one ever so concern about me.
our 2 years is coming and you are going to enlist to ns le
like that our meeting is getting lesser and lesser le.
when i work morning no one will fetch me go home le.
unless its fall on weekends.
bi i want to tell you i really love you alot.
nothing gonna change my love for you.
i will be there for you no matter what.
i will wait for you to finish ur ns.

I think i do wrong things again.. i shouldn't ask you to repeat.. so that you wont shout at me le.. im sorry for making you angry all the time.. dui bu qi.. just now you shouted me make me feel so scared you know.. i know is my fault..

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bi,
i love you..
been with you for so long,
you always pampered me like no one do..
but i never regret being together with you..
always come pei me when i end work or when i off..
being with you every time i feel so happy..
this January will be 1 year 8 months le.
i miss you so much..
cant meet you everyday i feel so lonely..
how i wish i can hug,kiss and say i love you to you..

bi, still remember when we first met at hougang..
i will never forget about that day..
and you fetch me home from school and work..
always make you travel to come meet me..
i love you always <3

sorry baby

Baby sorry i make you angry again..

I always make you angry de..

Dui bu qi..

I dont know what to do then i wont make you angry..

All in these time i make you angry de most..

Im sorry..

I love you so much..

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HAPPY 19 MONTHSARY BABY :D

time flies baby..

i'm sorry i can only meet you once a week due to working..

i know you will say "its okay de "

we been so much together be it happy/sad/angry..

but i know you will also be there for me..

you always show me so much love and care than other guys.

pamper me like a princess/baby..

give me what i want ..

i'm happy to have you by my side..

i never regret being together with you all along.. 

i love for who you are.. 

baby i love you.. 

happy anniversary.. (:

Thurday 22/12

had Christmas party during thursday was fun. Had lots of tears and laughter..
ate quite alot after work.. had golden pillow which is inside is curry chicken..
had fried rice and fried beehoon and pizza too!!

Friday 23/12
Friday as usual is my off day..
didn't get to meet baby due to his tooth pain.

Saturday 24/12
had work in the morning from 10am to 5pm.
after work went to meet moon..
she said want to pass me my present..
she gave me a pink poker dot shoulder bag..
quite pretty.. and she gave me a usb fan..
Thanks for the gift (:
after bid goodbye, i quickly went back home prepare and bathe then went down to meet baby and we went to ZACDIUS  1year old birthday chalet.
was with boyfriend all the way..
as i did not know any one there.
drank some beer and eat some food..
at night had fried chicken for supper..
due to the oil the first patch of chicken is chao da (burnt)..
heard some sarcastic remarks..
if you think is burnt then dont eat la.
who ask you to eat..
if i know you all will give this kind of remark i wont give you all eat already..
taking care of zacdius i so fun.. carry him until my hand pain now.
carried him to find his mum.. like to fake cry also...
boyf wan to carry him he let him carry.. i wan carry him he dont want..

Sunday 25/12
had another round of bbq..
wanted to ton one more night there..
but during 11pm plus mum start to call me..
i thought i can stay in the end mum dont allow..
so got no choice got to part with boyf and go home..
haiish.. in the end he accompany me go home..
then he go back to east coast park..
he just want me to be safe to reach home so he accompany me take cab go home then i drop he went back..
so sweet of him right.. hahas..

Monday 26/12
stay at home all the way..
miss my boyf so much..
hope friday i get to meet him for movie or something..
cuz Friday is our ANNIVERSARY!!

Lastly:
Baby sorry cant pei you last night..
i will try to pei you the next chalet..
I love you alot.. 

111222

tonight at work place gonna have a advance Christmas party.
we will have a supper eating session with my colleague 

19122011

due to i fall asleep
i didnt reply baby text.
so he seems like angry..
always i'm the one that make him angry..
i find myself so useless..
i always make us quarrel before our anniversary, meet up or when we slacking.

baby i'm sorry
i always make you angry..
but no matter what i wont change my mind to love you.
i will forever love you like i always do.

off day

having 2 off days this week.
due to lynn came back to work.
she happy she dont come work
she not happy she come work, then i must work lesser hours.
like this lesser pay..
wth is that.
want her ask me work lesser hours.
dont want her ask me work long hours.
where got such things.
like that where got fair..
so what she is more hardworking than me.
so means that you can make that kind of decision that is unfair for me.

good thing is that i can rest more.
bad thing is that i get lesser pay..
haiish life is like this...
Boring!!!

06112011

Missing you always make me feel like crying. Without you by my side i more sad. Cant pei you i feel more upset. Always make you wait for me to end work, so that we can text. See you like this i heart pain...

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baby Love

this week i meet baby a lot of times.
i'm a happy girl.
this week i meet him Monday, Wednesday, either Friday or Saturday (:
get to meet him i feel so happy.
love him lots.
now he is the only thing that i want the most.
he care for me a lot. And he dote me, pamper me too!
i love you baby <3 muacks :D

the coming Monday i going USS with my working friend again. the first time i went with baby and his friends and my girlf too.
it was baby birthday, so baby ask me to go too. so i ask my girlf to accompany me.
i still rmb baby help me carry my bag.
i meet him in the train at serangoon in the early morning like 8 plus or 9. cant remember already.
he wanted to hug me infront of his friends and my girlf.
sweet right. hahas.

this end of the month is our anniversary. on the 30th we had been together for 1 year 5 months (:

its been a month plus i didnt update already.
just wake up. slept early last night.
due to i fall aslp then i forget to tell baby that i went to sleep.
so he was like a bit angry i guess.



p/s: baby sorry i always fall asleep and never tell you. make you wait for my reply. dui bu qi. i love you baby ^^

3005

MONTHSARY DAY!
happy monthsary baby.
i love you.
once again never get to celebrate with you.
i missing you each and everyday.
i'm happy to be with you, even we meet less compare to others couple.
i'm happy that you not leaving me because of i do not have time to pei you.
you still support me when you are not with me.
you always there for me when i need a listening ear.
when i'm scared, i call you, you sure pick up my call.
and you always wait for me to end work.
you always sacrifice your sleeping time just to pei me.
i'm happy baby.

LOVE YOU <3

Sorry

Im really sorry baby.
I made you cry today.
Really sorry.
Make you worry.
对不起我让你担心
让你哭。
我不是故意的。

3005

once again is 30th again.
which means is our monthsary.
I'm happy to be with you.
recently so many things happen between us.
I'm sorry i made you worried on that Saturday.
i made you cried.
dui bu qi.
due to working, i never ever celebrate monthsary with you before.
and due to working, i cant meet you often.
only get to meet you once a week.
although is only a few hours I'm happy.
cause i get to see you, hug you, kiss you.
you always pamper me like a baby.
buy things, you always want to pay for me.
as when you buy things i want pay for you, you keep on say don't want.
since you insist, i don't want to quarrel because of that.


HAPPY MONTHSARY BABY!
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

Moody~~

I always will say wrong things.
People always get the wrong idea.
No one seems to understand me.
Don't know what to do then you all will understand.
I guess i being kind too much.
Haish!

140611

Meet up with girlf today.
Plan to give boyf a surprise.
I secretly went to boyf hse area.
Without telling him.
I miss him badly and i want meet him today!
But sadly he cant so i went to find him.
See i so good right!
Now missing him!
Miss his hug,kiss.
Next week gonna go taiwan for one week.
Will miss him badly!!

Can we back to the past?

Everytime image flash back when we just get to know each other.
The time i hold back my love for you, the feeling is so terrible for me.
And i know your phone drop into the toilet bowl, we cant contact my heart sank until the bottom.
No words can explain how i feel.
I can only use cry to make me feel better than so upset.
Always things happen, i only know how to cry. Therefore i'm a cry baby.
I hope you can love me whole heartedly.
Dun back out suddenly.
If not i don't what is gonna happen.
I think is keep on crying and crying. That all bahs. (:

Boring~~~~

So long didnt update blog already!
Was kinda busy working.
Few hours time baby gonna go back school and study.
Will miss him hell lots.
Those nitec classmates will start school too.
Wonder B.Y is still the same and the class got disiao her anot.
Miss the laughter in nitec class.
As for me i can only work.
Dont have the mood to study anymore.
Study the course that i dont like for what.
Wasted one year already.
What for wasted another year Studying whereby i dont have the mood to study.
Must well i go work better.
Gain experience and get salary.

I miss my baby. Hope he get to poly next year. (:

Irritating!

Dun wan how to study got wrong mehs.
Cannot study got wrong mehs.
Always like to compare me and them.
So what their pay is higher than me.
Im happy with my pay cAn le mahs.
Hate to being compare with others.

tomorrow is our 8 months.
time flies.
so fast 8 months le.
gonna meet him later instead of tomorrow.
cause might last minute call me work full shift.
miss him badly.

for the past 2 days i had diarrhea.
and then yesterday night menses attack.
wth!!!!
but still a good thing although it like come at the wrong timing.
if not during CNY then it come then gg already,

i shall stop here.
needa go bathe and prepare now.

I'm happy and delight

Get to meet you today.
Even though it just 3 hours i'm happy already.
Whenever i get to meet you,
I feel your warmth.
It make me so happy.
When can i get to meet you again?
I miss ur hug, smell, kiss and the way you say 'iloveyou' to me.
I feel so happy like a little girl when you say 'iloveyou' to me right at my face.

Baby i love you so much that i cant love without you.
If one day i lose you, i guess i gonna cry until my eyes balls out.
I might turn crazy if you are not by my side anymore.
Right now when i'm writing this my tears roll down.
This is how important you are to me.
Baby i love you. Muacks.

Going to 8months.

14 days more to our 8monthsary.
Very fast it gonna be one year.
Time flies.
Loving you more and more each day.
Even though i not meeting you often.
But the feeling is still there.
Hope you do.
I miss you baby.
And i miss you so.

01-01-2011

Happy New Year!

It's 2011.
A new year for me.
Birthday is getting near.
Still got 1 month and 7 days.
I'm getting older already.
Will be 19 years old already.
OMG~
How should i celebrate my birthday this year?
Should i book chalet?
Or just a celebration with my friends?

Baby

I love you baby

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2 more days to 7 months.
Time flies.
We had been together for 7 months already.
Love you more and more each day.
I love you baby 
Missing you everyday.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!
5 more days to our 7 months.
I'm so happy i get to meet you later.
I miss you so much.
I love you more and more each day.
I hope you too.
I dont mind you have money anot.
As long as i get to see you i'm happy already.
I don't mind you didnt bring go anywhere.
I happy to be with you.
That's all i'm asking from you.
Now to me,
You are too precious to lose.
I don't want you to feel useless, poor, cannot give me happiness.
As long as we together i don't mind all that.
You understand?
The only thing i asking was more love, care and concern.
That's what i'm asking for.

What a bad news to me.

I was feeling so happy.
Cause i get to see you on sat and spent my christmas with you.
Now i dont get the chance.
Feeling so upset now.
Tears rolled down.
All thanks to your classmates.
I dont get the chance to meet you on sat.

i miss you badly. 

i know is my fault that i suspect you.

is not that i want.

i don't know why i got that feeling.

i'm sorry. 

201210

10 more days to our 7 months.
Time flies, 7 months already.
I still love you so much.
Are you?
When i gonna see you again? ):
Miss you badly.
Do you know that?
Miss your hug amd kisses.

I crave your face in my heart.
So when ever i want see you i can see easily.
Now You are the boy i love, i miss, i care badly.
I cherish the time with you.
But it always pass so quickly.
Till i doesn't want to bid goodbye with you.

181210

Time check: 12.49am

Missing you now.
We were textimg each other now but i still miss you badly.
Everyday i think all is about you.
When you going give me surprise again?
I want see you everyday.
I want hug you too.

Baby can i have surprise from you again?
Once again i made a wish at 11.11 just now.
It still the same old wish.
It's all about you. (:
Baby iloveyou (:

now you should be sleeping soundly.
i'm missing you right now.
everytime i miss you,
my tears fill in my eyes.
i tried not to cry,
but i just cant control it.
you are the first guy that:
i miss so much.
i love so much.
i care so much.
now you are the only 1 i want now.

i had so much fun and laugher yesterday.
you make me love you more and more each day.
i hope we would last.

baby:
no matter what, i love you for who you are.
i hope you wont disappoint me.
i love you ♥ 

now is 12.19pm.
when i was in the middle of the night sleeping,
i keep on wake up.
i wake up at 2.22am
suddenly i miss my baby.
tears in the middle of the night.
miss your hug so badly.
then i went back to sleep.
again 5 plus wake up again.
no choice have to sleep back.

miss you badly.
want to see you and hug you again.
when can i again?
i want to keep you by my side.

161210

Get to hug you today.
So happy.
Everytime i miss you, automatically i drop my tears.
Feel so upset.
So hard to get to see you.
But i still bear the pain till i get to see you.
Everytime i see 11.11 i will wish that we would last.
I hope that we do really last.
You are the first guy i love so much. So i hope you shall be the first and last one.
Although you no money, but you still can make me happy.
Everytime you hug me, i feel so warm.
I hope you can be faithful, truthful to me.
That all i want. I want be the only girl that you will see in your eyes.
7 months coming alrdy. I hope i still counting the months we together.



I Love you baby. You will always be in my heart. No matter what i not gonna let you go. Hugs and kisses. Muacks.

Thinking of you again.

Time check : 0126am
Lying on my bed now.
Whole mind is think about you now.
Miss you badly.
I just cant wait to see you again.
See you = get hug from you. (:
You pamper me like a princess.

Missing you once again.

Missing you right now. Miss your hug, your smell, your kiss and your face. How i wish i can see you everyday.

you just make me wanna love you more and more each day. 

miss my baby already.
although we just met.
can't wait to see him again.
lie on your shoulder make me feel so comfortable.
get hug from you feel so loved again.
get kiss from you i know that i'm the only one in your eyes.
how great if i get all these everyday?

love to receive your text when you say "iloveyou and imissyou" to me! 
how i wish i get to see you everyday.

30052010

once again you say you are xiaoqi and useless.
i guess we will last until we are old.
on the day i start to accept you as my boyf ♥
i never regret.

HAPPY 6 MONTHSARY ♥

we have been together for 6 months already.

time flies.

i love you more and more now.

you give me so much love and care than my ex boyfriend.

ILOVEYOU BABY!!

101128

The most saddest day i ever had.
I not sure why i'm crying now.
Feel so damn sad.
Why choose tmr to go to sentosa?
Because of sch i cant go enjoy.
Every is going except me.
What a spoiler.
Feel so shag now.
Just never go sentosa only mahs.
I dunno why am i crying?
Wtf. The feeling keep on make me wanna cry.

currently at com lab doing nothing.
playing cafe word and restaurant city.
so boring.
about 2 hours more jiu end school le.

memory flash back to Tuesday.

Tuesday till now whenever i take train,
i see hougang it makes me remind me about you.
i miss you badly.
you are the only guy i like so much.


you make me smile when i receive your sweet message.

isn't this cute.
at night i just like to read this.

everyday gets to text with you or morning gets to answer your call, i feel duper happy the whole day.
ever since tuesday i get to meet you i feel so happy. (:
baby i love you (L)

101109

yesterday was the most happy day i ever had.
i will never forget 09112010.
that's the day i went to meet my baby <3
but around 8 plus he need to leave le.
abit sad, dun bear to see him leave.
how i wish he is beside me right now.
yesterday bully me.
next time is my turn.. muhahaha
whenever think of that moment he was waiting for bus at interchange
my eyes was flood with tears.

Stress

Around 21 more days to the final exam alrdy.
Die die die.
Not sure whether i can survive for my beo anot.
Poa i think i can mak it. But beo haish.
I think must study le.
I have to complete my pie portfolio lei.
Sian still got alot need to do lei.
How sia?? Omg.

without your text yesterday night and today morning the feeling is weird.
feel  like crying.
now my eyes like abit swollen.
weird feeling.

I'm happy

Ever since i get to know you, i feel so happy everyday.
And now we are together, you make me love you more and more each day.
You are so different from other guys.
You are much more better than E.

7 october

So freaking tired.
Somebody sabo chris shift.
Only left me chris yunyun ririn and hua eng working.
2 guy nv come.
Needa sleep now. If not later same thing happen again die already.

had a little tiff with boyf 2 days ago. ):
every time when we quarrel he would always say he was in the wrong because he give me attitude and too petty(xiaoqi).
but i was the one who started quarreling.
i said sorry to him and he would said i was not in the wrong..
some times i really don't know what he thinking about.
wake up at 7.30am due to my phone alarm clock which i set for school.
i didn't switch off so i was awake by the alarm.
today i guess i can talk to him.
so long didn't talk to him le. (:

miss him so much!!
BABYPIG <3 is still in his lala land ):

i'm blogging here and surfing the net while waiting for some people to finish their previous test then we can proceed to the next test!
most people is waiting for those 3 people to finish!
gosh! today school end at 5 ):
left 3 days to 2 weeks HOLIDAY!!
tomorrow have make-up workshop.
i dunno whether want to go anot..
abit lazy sia!

been going to school and study
test and test and test!!
when can this end??
i'm tired with all these!
every week is go school, and then go work!
what a boring life i have!
recently nth happen!
but just now sth happen.
not gonna elaborate.
because it is damn scary!!
need to forget abt it. if not i don't know how am i going to sleep with this kind of feeling!!
and baby when are you going to text me? i guess you fall asleep already.
i have to wait until afternoon then i get your text!
miss die you!!

so long didnt update this dead blog..
in school now!!..
feeling so sucky nowdays!!
no mood to update alrdy!!

was on the phone with GIRLF ♥
she told me about her and her boyf..
if really so tong ku must as well listen to us give yourself a break, leave the guy..
i was in the same situation as you before..
you also told me to leave the guy,
i also tell you very difficult to leave,
what for because of a guy you live until so tong ku..
am i right?


feel like changing blogskin.
maybe wait until i free from school or holiday bahs.
time check: 10.14pm.
not sure what to do at this time.
i guess i have to go and find some dvd and watch.
so bored! shall continue with 'wo de yi wan mian bao'


tmr should be going for movie session with shiying to lido to watch movie.
hope the chair is very comfortable unlike last time that went with chris.
good night peeps.
might update tmr night or wednesday!

went to shop for slippers with my sister today at city square mall.
wanted to go eat the kichi kichi hotpot with my sis,
but then mum cook curry chicken, so long didnt eat so decided to eat hotpot other day.
hope is nicer than the one 1 hougang mall.
so i guess she will be treating me??
hahas,
today off day and thurs off day.
on fri have to work until sun then get to off,
but the off is have to go sch,
and see the old hag face!!
her lesson is fcuking boring!!
but have to bear with it for like 4 months like that.
time files faster please!!!
i want to get out of that school and not study anymore!!
study makes me so sick and tired!!
bye gonna go watch 个人取向already..

so tired...
yesterday went to play badminton and volleyball with bel.
now my whole body hurts.
feel so shiok after so long didnt play until so 'hardcore' already..

slept at 3am just now,
now is 12.05 i wake up so early...
needa go work later
so sians.

ysd night when i was about to put song into my phone,
suddenly it dunno what happen it go to the restore mode(not sure what is it call)
then nearly all my text and contact number gone..
after went to youtube to search for some similar things too..
soon i can on back but then songs and my video gone.
lucky my message and my contact number is still there..

gonna go rest more now. if not later working that time sure tired until wan to die.

THURSDAY
meet up with ANISSYA, BEL, AMANDA, SHIYING and her boyfriend.
went to play badminton.
before we start to play we went to mac to have my so called lunch.
we having fun and laughter during eating.
after badminton went to compass, ShiYing send her boyfriend to mrt and bid goodbye.
and we went to basement to have our ice-cream session.
had fun and laughter again.
went to walk around.
and went home after that.

FRIDAY
didn't went to school as they were having celebration of National Day
early morning went to Rivervale Plaza with mum to have breakfast with her and buy stuff too.
reached home around 3pm went down with mum and sister to buy tibits.
reached home 4.30pm bathe and nua at home for awhile and went to work.
around 8.30pm ANISSYA came. around 9 she went to Rivervale Plaza to find her friend!
ended work SHIYING came to meet me and  ANISSYA.
went to slack.

SATURDAY
went out of house at 2plus to meet ANISSYA.
take bus and walk to mall.
slack around mall after that went to work.
ended work at 10.30 like that.
slack and walked home with TRICIA and bid goodbye to her.

SUNDAY
actually work morning today, but due to some changes i work night.
hopefully tonight wont happen anything.
working with two irritating ppl. hope i wont get pissed off and angry when i'm working.
don't know why these few days i get mood swing so easily.
later going work, BORING~
tomorrow going out with GIRLFRIENDS!
going for cycling session, movie session, talking session, and of course FIREWORKS!

tricia mummy:
cheer up. don't think too much.

missing you~

nowadays i very easily tired
the moment i reached home from school
i always got the feeling of going to sleep.
so tired.
now its saturday already
1 more days to Sunday and then Monday again.

currently nua-ing in lab.
doing nothing, but only fbing fbing.
sians... i didn't bring my thumb-drive then i cant complete my PIE project.

missing you is part of my routine now.
watching my drama now and my mind keep on flash with your image.
every time saw you my heart beat faster and faster until it so hard to breathe.
and my face turn red within 1 min.
that's fast. every moment feel like seeing you.
but i know cant.
how i wish you were staying at the same block as me.
because like that after work i can wait for you, you can wait for me and we can go home together.
its that sweet!! (:

missing you

I'm missing you like no tomorrow.
never see you gives me bad mood.
i don't mind waiting for your text everyday.
you seems very irritated whenever i text you
every time i read your old text
my face automatically will smile,
sometimes i feel so sweet when you say you miss me.
I'm so happy!
feeling tired and my eyes is closing soon.
boy, i miss you!!

girlfriend,
cheer up alright?
i want the old you, not now the you!!
he dun wan you is he stupid.
dun because of one tree you give up the whole forest!
fall down already must straight away stand up.
don't sit down there and wait.
i know you love this guy a lot.
but is he doing the same?
so it's not worth it.
cheer up! anything text me!!

i like to wait for your text every night.
no matter now late i'm willing to wait.
this is how i am when i'm waiting for your text.

am i feeling hungry that's why i'm feeling dizzy and feel like vomiting?
aiyo how i was you was beside me.
and my eyes going to close already.
going sleep already.
good night peeps.

Am i falling in love with you?
Am i? I'm confuse.

now i'm kinda confuse
i do have good feelings for you
but i don't know what to do.
what should i do?
can you tell me?
i don't know i like you or i love you.
i don't dare to say because i scare being hurt also can say i that i scare you are being hurt too!
i don't want to repeat the history again for you.
i don't understand what i'm thinking.

what happen to me now?
suddenly i feel like crying!
oh my god! am i jealous or what?
why i got that feeling?

i want to scream out loud.
school is starting just 1 more day!
why can't give us holiday more longer!!
i don't wish to go school on monday
stomach cramp must go school, somemore the first day got PE.
i hate to have PE when i have stomach cramp.
painful like hell!!

so long didn't update my blog already.
had been working for the past few weeks.
was too lazy to update too!
going out in the morning with my mum and sis.
mum went for appointment.
might went to IKEA to buy new fan.
gonna stop on air-con cuz it starts to rain in my room!!
hahas jkjk is the air-con start to drip water again. sians.
in the middle of the night can go toilet cuz if go the floor will be damn wet!!
time check: 2.46 am
i'm still infront of the com and update.
going to slp alrdy, needa wake up at 7 plus later!!
urgggg!!! sian after that have to go work!!
aiyo. so tired! no choice because of handphone bill have to work more days during holidays!
sync so long still haven okays.. wth!

had been sick since Saturday.
having high fever that day.
my temperature was 39.4 degree.
was so tired and no strength to move everywhere!
went to see doctor and i got 2 days mc.
now fever is gone but cough and sore throat is still here!
so not fully recover.
next monday going watch movie with shiying.
still dunno meeting her what time.
i think shall meet her in the late afternoon or evening bahhs.
should call other ppl go also?
should ask her whether she want anot.
i guess if all girls should be fun!
tata gonna rest now.

i like falling in love with thai song.
their song meaning is damn sad sia.
i went to search for his name in msn,
guess what i found his account.
and the display picture is him and a girl.
i dunno what to react at that moment of time.
how i wish someone was beside me and lend me shoulder for me to lean.
slowly tears rolled down my cheek.
i felt damn sad, i also dunno why.
i know that feeling fade. but why i still cry?
i dun get it.
everything is not right for me.
yesterday night i found out that he's playing.
and today i lai ang.
damn suay. i dunno what to do sia.
haiish. i want to forget what i saw,
but the image just keep on appear in my mind.
fcuk sia. damn irritating la!!!
get out of my brain now.
i dun wish to see you anymore.
hope you and the girl last long.
they had been together since last year November 16.
which is we stead for 1 year and 6 days he got another girlfriend behind my back.
haiish.

woke up at 7.15am, went to bathe and prepare.
went out of house at 8.20am.
reach mrt station was about 8.30plus, went into the cabin and waited for the train to move.
stand for about 15 mins the train is still not moving, see alot of people went out of the cabin to take cab to work. but i choose to stand there and wait.
i have the intention to take cab to school.
it was wasting money as today i does not want to reach school on time. so i choose to wait for the train to move. and i dun want to waste my money when i didnt even take the train.
reach serangoon my leg totally went jelly type. i cant even walk properly sia.
i slowly walk to circle line. reach bishan slowly walk to school. i cant take it anymore.
i need to sit more. i went to the class and teacher ask me why i was late.
i shout across to the teacher that i was stuck in the train for 1 and half hour.
1 of my classmate say so kua zhang but its true. i didnt lie.
alot of ppl was stuck in the train too.
what a unlucky day i have today.

wth.
and now you got another blog never tell me.
is this call friends?
now i knw that a 7 days boyfriend can replace a 3 years plus good friends.
i dunno what to say anymore.
you changed so much.
are you still the ISEBELLA KANG GUI LAN that i know from 3 years ago?
and now you make me drop tears again.
you know how much you meant to me anot.
i really treat you as my good good good friends.
you know how important you are in my life anot.
i never blame you for lying to me alrdy.
but i need time to forget all this.
now i wonder are we still friends?
i alrdy give you all my blessing,
why you still like this?
why dun wan to let me know?
stop hiding things away from me can anot.
just tell me the truth is that so difficult.
i wont blame you anymore.
i just want all the truth.

this time you make me very disappointed.
you stead with him why don't dare tell me, you should know me well.
i won't because you stead with him and don't be your friend anymore.
i won't okays. get this right!
you should know if you tell me in the first place i wont be that sad rather than now right.
and the answer you told me is that you yi shi wang ji.
how can that be, you my close friend lei.
not those normal friend lei.
some more that time at chalet you know that i dui him you hao gan.
and you went to hospital to visit him, nvm i thought you really go visit your friend.
and when you got stead, i ask you who.
you lie to me, you tell me is ur gb hse there de.
nvm, i believe you.
when you stead with him, and you know that we are monster and hamster.
you still can choose not to tell me.
what is this?
should friends do that.
i dun think so. how can you do that?
after i find sth fishy i ask you.
you still tell me you dunno who.
again you lie to me .
is it so difficult to tell me the truth?
i know you will say you dun wan to be hurt or break our friendship.
have you ever see me do that ?
let say jenson la.
that time tricia like him and they stead,
did i say i want to break friendship with tricia?
no right.?
we been friends for like going 3 years and you still dunno wo de wei ren mehs?
every time something happen between us the trust is not there.
then because you were my girlfriend and my closest friend i choose to forgive you and help you build the trust in my heart.
again the trust is broken, nvm i help you build again.
because you were my girlfriend and my closest friend ever i choose to do these.
maybe you will say i also never ask you to help me build the trust, is you ownself want to build it.
okays, everything is wo zi yuan de.
because i thought you will change whenever we quarrel or sth.
from my first impression of you being my friends you change from bad to worst.
i cant believe that. but i still choose to be friends with you.
you hong never mind. i nothing to say.
i let you hong. but you seems like getting guo fen and guo fen.
i still choose to be ur friends.


sometimes i still think are you worth for me to do these?
i told myself because i treat you as my girlfriend, closest friend and good friend, so i do all these is worth it. but now i dunno what to tell myself what to do. everytime i choose to forgive you, you know how much pain i suffer anot?
because of you i cried when chatting with you on msn. 

i have so long didn't do cook already.
juilin work with us she doesn't want to do cook.
hock can't cook due to he's tired
so i say i do cook.
in the end was abit regretted.
now my body ache .
now do cook have to change this change that.
so troublesome.
waste my energy.
was working until 2pm because of lacking of chicken so i do until 2 plus den i still have to clean and wash the OR port.
was damn hot and have to scrub like no tomorrow.
so suay sia my hand.
went home around 3.30pm.
so tired. went to sleep awhile but still tired.
wake up went to Punggol Plaza with sister to buy dinner.
now was feeling hungry i think. omg. how could this be.
ahhhs.... help me!!! i don't want to grow fat!
my eye lid is half open.
gonna go sleep soon.
nights people : D

went to meet shiying at compass to pass her,
her ipod and poker card.
after that went to eat at pizza hut.
saw quite familiar faces in pizza hut.
after eating, we craving for durian pancake.
we bought 4, 2 each.
omg, somemore we just finish eating pizza.
omg!!! after buy went to block to huhu!
sitted at staircase for awhile and went to punggol interchange.
went to sit at the entrance of the other side of mrt station.
at there huhu, then went to wait for bus.
went we walking to sit down at the chair, we walk pass a china man,
suddenly we heard something weird.
we stun and we went to sit other side.
guess what we hear??
is a girl at there moaning!
omg!! went we walk pass we heard girl moaning means,
the guy is watching porn.
we went silence and we laugh .
omg, how can he do that in public.
somemore went we walk pass him, the volume seems louder and louder.
sibei siasuay sia!!
omg!!!cant believe that..
my 3 weeks of holiday only left 2 weeks plus
open school gonna chiong studies already.
sians. omg. CS still got 6 chapters haven study!!
hope open school time pass slowly. but not too slowly!

currently in school now.
today is the last day of school for ite students!
almost half of the class didn't come.
class will be quiet.
so good. isn't it!
hahas.. i sound bad sia!
but without them no fun!
at least will have joke to hear,
then we can exercise our mouth jaw!
hahas...
gonna enjoy myself with friends during this 3 weeks of holiday!

finally I'm done with all my CA!
now is the time to relax.
tomorrow is last day of school,
then i will have my 3 weeks of holiday!
*laugh laugh*
should i go and work?
haven decide yet, need to chiong work and earn back my money!
now i'm broke, and i haven pay my handphone bills.
and i also want to change handphone.
ohGOD! please let my mum strike 4D,
so i can ask her buy handphone for me!!!
going holiday for ite students.
and going to be school reopen for secondary.

came across my friend blog,
and she put thailand music so i went to listen.
OMG~ the song is damn nice and touching!
here is the video(L):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEIxZcszyKQ&feature=player_embedded# (part 1)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mzcqO-bdHZo (part 2)
this is damn nice!