1 year

Its been 1 year i had stayed at my own house with my husband.
I can't imagine i am living without my family.
I can't believe i manage to live without my mum.
Starting i can't used to it.
I wish to wake up and see my mum sleeping in the living room at the sofa.
I wish to wake up with food on the table, i just take and eat.

But now i manage live without my mum around me.
Although now i meeting her once a week, or sometimes once every 2 weeks if i'm working morning shift.
Recently last year she not been very good when the hungry ghost festival period,
I was quite worry when i saw my sis msg saying mama is in hospital.
I was so scared.
Lucky she manage to get control over it.
Now every year Hungry Ghost Festival i will be very afraid to receive msg from my sis.

This year is joyful and disappointment year for our family.
Because my brother got married.

As for disappoint new, i shall not elaborate it.

1 more hour my honey is coming back.

This 30th May is our 8 Years Anniversary.

I love you honey.

Time 22:20pm

Today afternoon went to Toa Payoh for OUR FLAT SELECTION!
Quite happy that we got to own a flat so fast.
We been together for 6 years and 6months plus..
Cant believe we actually walked so far..

The next thing that we going to do is to get married and get the marriage certificate before our key collection day.
Although we got one more appointment to go then to the key collection..
Very soon gonna moved out of the house..
Can't bear to but have to..
Next time will see mama lesser..

But when i keep think of that it makes me upset.
I know one day i will have to move out to start my own family.
But all these like happen too quick where i don't know how to react.
I don't know what to do to stop this kind of feeling.
Whenever i think of that i feel like crying out.

I will try my best to get this feeling out of my mind..
I believe i can make it.

Gonna Work Hard For Our Future Now!!!

JIAYOU!!

life after promoted..

hello..
so long didn't blog already..
recently got promoted to shift manager..
been quite busy now days..
and get very tired easily..
and fall asleep very early..
hence got no time to accompany my honey..
i'm sorry honey..
i know i get less time to accompany you now days..
i will try my best to accompany you more okay..
today is my off day so i decided to blog about my life today..
today got in touch with mdm dewi..
ask her about mall kfc..
how was it now without my presence..
i guess it is better now..
cause got 5 new staffs..
but now she hired ah lian.. don't know how is the ah lian doing..
are they better than aunty sally or worst then aunty sally..
hahas... i told mdm dewi that i saw some mall regular customer at compasspoint and some said they saw me at there so happy.. And i heard from mdm dewi that got customer ask about me..
hahas.. so happy.. they notice i not around anymore.. at least i still stand a better place in their mind whenever they thought of kfc they thought about me...

i love my honey alot!!!
i love you!! <3 p="">

I fall aslp again.. i tell you i want to pei u but i didnt.
You told me alot times before i want to sleep must tell u but i always didnt..
I always make u wait for my text for very long..
Im sorry honey.  I didnt meant to make u wait..
I also didnt meant to make u angry..
I also dun want to keep quarrel with u..
Im sorry..

突然想写华文。
前几天才听到他们分手了。
还说那时我鼓励她跟你分手。
我记得我没有说分手才是好的选择。
算了，事情都过了很久。
现在是他们和好就是一件好事。

一转眼时间就过了四年了。
我们在一起经过了风风雨雨。
在一起过了很多开心和不开心的事。
但是我依然很爱很爱你
不管你有钱还是没钱我都会在你身边陪着你。


林家盛，
我爱你宝贝！！

i know you are busy today.
you been driving since last night.
although you free you will text me.
i feel so happy to see your text.
but we talk awhile you are busy again.
although i quite upset cause i cant talk to you again.
i see you so tired, i'm so upset.
i know no choice cause this is army.
but i just xin tong to see you so tired.
this days i mc due to leg,
im still worried about you so much.
whether you got enough rest anot.
i hope you are doing fine.
i love you honey :D 

im sorry honey, i just want you to know how i feel.



i know is i think to much le
i know i'm a very easy jealous person.
when i know you started talking with ur friend's girlf
my mind was like anyhow think already.
i know is i anyhow think
i just dont like the feeling when i saw you two the conversation
i know you two just friends.
i know you wont bian xin.
i just scared so much.
but i just cant help not to think about it.
i wanted to tell you how i feel
but i just cant open up my heart and mouth to tell you.
im jealous ):

About 2 weeks plus you jiu coming back le. Now short of one staff. I dunno i still can pei you on sat anot.. I scare because of work our distance become far. I also scared that one day you will leave me. Like how other guy leAve me cuz i got not enough time to pei you. Im really scare. If one day really happen i dunno how to continue to survive in this world. 

Imissyou

I'm sorry I cause so much trouble to you.
I just want all these to stop.
I just want everything back to last time.
I just the happy us back together again.
Bi I really love you a lot.
Don't leave me can?
I want you by my side. Imi

sometimes i wonder do you really tell me everything?
sometimes i can feel it.
is not that i not trust you.
is just that the feeling in my heart is making me thinking so much.
i wanted to tell you, but i scared you will angry.
baby can tell me anything.
i wont angry if you honest with me.
as long as you auto tell me im okay with it.
really! i promise

你到底有没有爱过我？
我真的很想知道！
我真的要你在我的身边永远陪伴我
我的要求是这么简单

i know i had been working never pei you even after work.
you also been very understanding to me, but suddenly things changed.
i know is very hard for you that i never show any care and concern, and love to you.
but i did tried my best to off sat to pei you till late night that i have to take cab home.
have you think of that..
i know i let you wait so long for my text till 10pm.
you have been so understanding to me, i know is my fault that i never pei you text. im sorry honey..
i tried my best, have you seen that?
i know you want someone that can pei you whole day..
im sorry i cant do that due to work.
i know im not a good girlf.
you did so much things for me yet i only did alittle thing for you.
i know you been so nice to me for the past 3 years.
i grateful that you are so nice to me.
cause no one been so nice to me.
you are the first guy..
so bi, can we go back like last time?
i promise you i will change.. can you come back to my side throughout the rest of my life.
i want to have you by my side till the last breath.
can? i really will change.. please!

bi, 

everything gonna stop at 30th,

im really happy that you willing to give us a chance to save this relationship.

is good that you say out how you feel.

i'm sorry i didnt give you the love that you wanted, the care that you want.

and i never pei you due to working,

i know you said that you got gf like no gf, 

im sorry i make you think till like this.

all is my fault, other people gf can pei their bf only ur gf cant pei you.

im sorry! 

other people gf can pei their bf for many days, im sorry i can't.

because of work i neglect you, i know i not a good gf to you.

break ur heart, hurt ur feeling.

you are the best bf i ever had, how i wish time can rewind and let me know you during 2006.

if so, i would choose not work, but work with you or work those simple and easy job.

so like that i got time to pei you now.

i know you sacrifice for me alot.

i didnt really sacrifice for you much.

although i tried to off during saturday, 

i know is not enough for me to pei you.

i know we can fight all the way until you come back oversea.

the most important thing is i scare you will bian xin.

i know you will say you wont but i really scared.

i know im no use, i only know how to cry that all.

no matter how much i cried can never be compared.

i dont how to make you happy, make you laugh.

if one day you really found a very nice girl than me, i wont blame you for leaving me behind.

im glad that you honest with me about ur feelings.

if not i think forever i will not know how you feel.

all i can say is that i really love you alot.

all i can do is to wait for you to come back to my side and realise there is a small changes in me.

love you always honey <3 anything="" care="" div="" know="" let="" me="" muacks="" of="" okay.="" please="" take="" yourself="">

anything can call me.  

We are not getting further. Our distance is not getting far. I know u feel that way. I hate to say that we are not. Dun feel that way. When i saw what you said i feel so sad straight away and my tears just roll down and my heart got this sour feeling. I dun like this kind of feeling. We are not drifting.. no!! I know i keep working never pei you. I end early or i off i never pei you. In sorry. I not a good girlf.. sorry

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while watching a new drama on xin msn which is on channel 8 9pm show.
when watching this show reminds me of my baby.
can't wait for the day to come when me and my baby walk on the carpet together,
handing hands.
follow by announce that we are husband and wife.
living together. thinking of our future together.
plan our house, our children.
take care of children, or we both working hard for our child and future.
be it rich or poor, i'm still willing to stay by ur side to work hard with you.

i want you forever by my side.
if you poor i will go out to work and make you rich.
我要永远缠住你，你是我的宝
我会永远爱你的。我要做你的唯一。

bi when you see this i want to tell you that i really love you.
i don't want to leave you. i be by ur side to pei you as long as i'm alive.
cause i want to take care of you, when you old i want to feed you food, water.
i want to hold your hand and walk the long walkway with you till we're old.
if you can't walk anymore i will push you.
i love you bi, i always want to tell you but i dun have the courage to tell you in face, that i'm sorry that i hurt you last time.
i know you said that past let it past.
but i can never forgive myself.
i will remember what i had done to hurt you.
im sorry bi.

so fast i'm being with you going 3 years le.
i'm happy to have you by my side.
be it happy or sad things happen,
you will always be there for me no matter what.
i'm sorry that sometimes i never accompany you.
i'm sorry that sometimes need you come and fetch me home and meet me at my hse.
i'm happy for what you had done for me.
i'm not a good girlfriend.
i never do anything for you.
make you spend so much money on me.
you always bring me go eat nice food, buy new cute stuff.
spend money on cab.
i love you so much bi.
i will try to change for a better girlfriend for you.
i know i only know how to cry cry cry.
i don't know how to solve the problem.
but believe me  i will change,
i know i always make you angry, sad, heart broken.
because of the incident i make you lost trust in me.
i'm sorry honey. do believe me that i love you alot okay

Feburary
Feb i had my 21st birthday celebration at pasir ris chalet.
Order quite alot of food and cant finish it. Some friend did not turn up!
Relative and friends and my bf friends came too. Thank you for coming to the chalet. I appreciated for ur coming.
Quarrel with bf due to some reason, was having cold war that night. But after that okay already.
After my birthday is chinese new year. Went to both grandma's place for gathering and bai nian. And gambler some, my luck is up and down..

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it's been a month since i last wrote.
baby now having his driving course.
i get to see him quite many times a week sometimes.
not like last time we only meet once a week.
i quite happy actually.
but sometimes i angry with myself.
cause i always make him angry,worry.
i know he is my darling, but i still don't wish to make him angry,worry or sometimes sad.
i'm sorry if i always make you piss off,upset.
i will try my best not to make you angry.
i will try to change for a better gf.

sometimes due to working schedule, i can only get to meet you after work which is after 10 pm.
the most i can only accompany you till 1 plus or 2.
always let you see my tired face, then you will start to worry that whether i got enough rest anot.
sorry honey, make you worry.

i know somtimes i always take thousand years to reply your text.
i'm sorry cause sometimes i really never notice it when i using com, or watching tv.
sometimes when you get angry, i will start to blame myself for making you angry again.
the only thing i know is to cry only.
i know you dont like me to cry, cause you not beside me cannot lend me your shoulder.
but as long as your soul are with me, i'm happy already.
i'm sorry sometimes i can't give you what you want from me.
sometimes i really want to change for you. but i know it takes time.
so i hope you can forgive me for what i had done in the past.
i still love you so much that nothing can compare.
we had been together for 2 years 5 months and 14 days.
very soon we gonna be 2 years 6 months. then follow by 3 years.
i will not leave you no matter what.
unless you don't want me anymore.
i love you baby 

recently we like having cold war at night.
i don't know is it he feeling tired or i piss him off.
i keep on ask him what happen?
boyf will always tell me nothing.
but i know there's something wrong.
so i stop asking, then my tears starts to flow out.
then i started crying.
i think alot , is it my fault that cause all these.
i know boyf will not tell me de..
i'm sorry i can't accompany you this week,
i got to work. i don't know when can i meet you,see you, hug you, kiss you.

2 days without your text and without your call.. i feel so lonely.. i miss you hell lots bi. Can faster come back? I want hug you, kiss you, sayang you, and say i love you to you.. i really love you alot.. cant wait to see you!!

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Baby, doesn't matter you gonna stay in camp for this whole week..
Although I can't see you and meet you, I will still love and miss you de..
I know you are sad cause you can't see me, meet me..
Next week we can meet up ah..
Dont think about it anymore.. I know you love me very much.. I love you very much too...
I won't throw you alone there de. I will pei you de..
Sorry I cry, cuz I really can't help you bear some of the pain..